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I had quite possibly the best dream ever last night. It was actually sometime after 3:30 this morning because I remember waking up around that time. After my dream I woke up so happy I can't even explain it. I'm still really happy just thinking about it right now.
I thought about it, anazlyzed what happened in it, and have come to realize that everything is okay. I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be in my life right now and things will happen when I'm ready for them to happen. Yeah, I have my lonely moments, but I know what I want and I'm not gonna settle for anything less than that.
Alex asked me last night, "Don't you just want someone to hold you?" The answer is, yes I do. Doesn't everyone? But I'm not gonna just go run to the first guy that comes around. I'm not just gonna settle for the first person that comes around because I'm lonely. I refuse to settle for anything less than what I want. I'm not some needy little girl who has to have a guy around to be happy. It's not just having a guy that would make me happy. It's having the right guy that's the most important thing to me.
So I'm willing to wait. I can stand some more lonely times because I know that it's gonna make the times that I spend with the right guy so much better. Like I would always tell Melissa...some things you just have to wait for. And look at her now...she's married and happier than ever. All of the bad times were worth it because in the end she got the guy.
I'm just putting all of my trust and faith in God. I know that I'm exactly where He wants me to be right now. I've been at a point where I have felt like this before, but I lost it not too long ago. It's not that I lost my faith in God, I just began to question Him about certain things in my life. But I refuse to lose it this time. Once things are meant to come to me, they will. But for now, I just have to live in the moment and concentrate on finishing school and beginning my career.
Have a great day everyone! Oh, by the way, I'm not gonna tell anyone what I dreamt about so don't bother asking. :)
I thought about it, anazlyzed what happened in it, and have come to realize that everything is okay. I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be in my life right now and things will happen when I'm ready for them to happen. Yeah, I have my lonely moments, but I know what I want and I'm not gonna settle for anything less than that.
Alex asked me last night, "Don't you just want someone to hold you?" The answer is, yes I do. Doesn't everyone? But I'm not gonna just go run to the first guy that comes around. I'm not just gonna settle for the first person that comes around because I'm lonely. I refuse to settle for anything less than what I want. I'm not some needy little girl who has to have a guy around to be happy. It's not just having a guy that would make me happy. It's having the right guy that's the most important thing to me.
So I'm willing to wait. I can stand some more lonely times because I know that it's gonna make the times that I spend with the right guy so much better. Like I would always tell Melissa...some things you just have to wait for. And look at her now...she's married and happier than ever. All of the bad times were worth it because in the end she got the guy.
I'm just putting all of my trust and faith in God. I know that I'm exactly where He wants me to be right now. I've been at a point where I have felt like this before, but I lost it not too long ago. It's not that I lost my faith in God, I just began to question Him about certain things in my life. But I refuse to lose it this time. Once things are meant to come to me, they will. But for now, I just have to live in the moment and concentrate on finishing school and beginning my career.
Have a great day everyone! Oh, by the way, I'm not gonna tell anyone what I dreamt about so don't bother asking. :)