[Spam for Rassilon]

[love_dont_roam]

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[shortsghtedlove]

[When Rassilon hears the knock, he puts the composition he had been working on aside -- he really needed something else to do.

As it is, he gets up, opens the door and comes face to face with Miss Tyler. Great. Just who he wanted to see, his dearest warden. But at least she has lunch with her, so there's one good thing about this visit.]

What do you want? [Surely she isn't just here to bring him lunch.]

[love_dont_roam]

[Rose's brow knits at his question, and she glances down at the tray. It's easier to look at.]

Cross words or not, we've still got an appointment, yeah?

[shortsghtedlove]

...I see. [He steps aside to let her in.] Put it on the small table. [He gestures to the one they had used for the tea.]

[love_dont_roam]

[She enters, and though she's not showing the same level of fire it's a bit obvious that doesn't mean she's any more thrilled to be there. But she keeps her promises at least. She sets the tray on the table.]

[shortsghtedlove]

[Rassilon sits down, takes his serving and starts eating, all while carefully avoiding looking at her. She should he was still upset.]

[love_dont_roam]

[She sits too but doesn't seem at all interested in touching her share. After some minutes she does finally decide she should say something.]

That wasn't all about you, the other day. Some of those things, I wanted to talk to you about them eventually. But it shouldn't have been then. I shouldn'ta answered you.

[shortsghtedlove]

[He looks up from his meal, slightly surprised. Then, said rather softly:] I would prefer if you refrain from deciding how I should feel from now on.

[love_dont_roam]

I don't want to start fighting about it again. I can't make you feel anything you can't feel already. [She swallows] But I ain't dropping it. I can't. I just ain't in the right place right now to talk about it; I can't find the right words. Not with everything else.

[shortsghtedlove]

The Doctor leaving, you mean? You seemed rather upset. [He should know, he watched her cry like a creeper.] But what you don't understand is, that it is not the same. You can't compare the relationship I have with my people to a virus I spread to stop the Divergents.

[love_dont_roam]

Stop. [She looked hard at him.] You keep telling me I don't understand, but I don't think you do either. But I can't right now. [She swallowed.] When Arthas killed the Doctor, infected him, made him like him. He kept telling me I didn't understand certain things then either. But I looked into the TARDIS, Rassilon. For a while my mind was so open and so many things came inside, but I haven't got much memory of them. I just know they're still in here. I don't have the words for them. I can't find them, but I know they're there. Right now it's just the same. I need you t'be patient, and when they come to me I swear you'll understand, even if you don't agree.

[shortsghtedlove]

If you can't recall most of it, it doesn't help you any. Truly, I don't think you can quite grasp what you were talking about. I wouldn't even blame you for it. I highly doubt you had experiences comparable to it -- and no 'looking into the TARDIS' doesn't automatically enable you to understand. What I do blame you for, and what I resent so, is that you pretend to know my feelings better than I do. You can't just decide what offends me, what I should think, what I should feel.

[love_dont_roam]

[She sits back, crossing her arms] I never did any of those things.

[shortsghtedlove]

You told me not to get offended by the things that offend me when we talked about the specifics of our deal. Just yesterday you tried to tell me how I should feel and think about the species that were affected by my virus. So yes, you did.

[love_dont_roam]

I didn't tell you how you should feel; I just can't comprehend how you can't.

[She sets her fork down.]

I told you to control your emotions. There's a difference between being offended and dealing with it like an adult and being offended and thinking it entitles you to violent behavior. And that's a lot of people here, not just you. You ain't done nothing yet, but that doesn't mean I'm not tryin' to prevent something before it's got the chance to happen.

[shortsghtedlove]

That's why I said you don't understand.

There hasn't been anything to cause me to take action yet. [He's really good at this lying business.] But yet again you make assumptions and insult me in the process.

[love_dont_roam]

What am I assuming? [She crosses her arms]