Friends only (not Justine, obviously)

Mar 29, 2008 01:13

I feel like, thirty different kinds of shit.

*headdesks*

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in_spectre_mors March 28 2008, 12:20:46 UTC
Tristan, my friend, what happened?

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love_catatonic March 28 2008, 12:25:54 UTC
Justine left. She's just... gone. Out of London. And now we're fighting on my journal. I'm fighting. I don't fight. Everything is so stupid.

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in_spectre_mors March 28 2008, 12:28:17 UTC
Oh Tristan, I'm so sorry. Was it because of all the disasters that have befallen this city of late?

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love_catatonic March 28 2008, 13:05:41 UTC
I don't know, she didn't even think I mattered enough to be told anything.

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in_spectre_mors March 28 2008, 13:10:51 UTC
I don't understand it. After all you shared... this just doesn't make sense.

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Screened love_catatonic March 28 2008, 13:40:23 UTC
No, it doesn't. I went into rehab for her! I fucking gave up so much for her! And still she hides and lies and continues fucking up, over and over and over. Still she goes back to Jocelin, after the way he treated her. She makes me so angry, and I just... I've never been this angry! I've never tried so hard with anyone just to have it all thrown back in my face!

I'm just so sick of her always keepings things from me. Keeping huge things from me and then not seeing how it could be a big deal. I'm so sick of watching her waste her life, of being this backboneless stupid girl who lets herself be fucked over- she's had so many chances and so many opportunities to change but she's thrown all of them away. And then she just lets this friendship go, like it's nothing, like she lets everything else go, because she doesn't have the strength to fight for anything. Or maybe because it is nothing, maybe because it just wasn't worth fighting for, maybe because it's impossible for anything to mean anything to her. Maybe she's just as heartless as ( ... )

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Re: Screened in_spectre_mors March 29 2008, 11:35:10 UTC
First off - and probably more than you ever needed to hear from me. Not true. I'll always be here to listen to what you have to say, Tristan. I don't want you to feel that there's anything you can't tell me. After the lives we've led, I think we both need someone who understands. I can't claim that our experiences have been exactly the same, but we do seem to understand each other a lot. I won't be the one to take that away from you. I'm honoured that you feel you can share all the things you do with me ( ... )

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Re: Screened love_catatonic March 29 2008, 13:28:24 UTC
I think I love- maybe, yeah, alright, love, every word you wrote here. I think I needed every one. Maybe you know just how much hearing this meant to me. I hope you know, you should know, when your words have an impact on someone. They had- have always had- an impact on me, and I don't think I can descibe it, but thank you, thank you, for everything you said. Thank you for meaning it. Thank you for understanding.

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Re: Screened in_spectre_mors March 30 2008, 04:33:45 UTC
Thank you, Tristan, for telling me how much it meant. It is very good to know indeed, when my words have had a positive impact. I'm so glad I've always been able to give that to you. I think you're an amazing man, and you deserve a lot more good than you've had in your life so far. I think it's coming your way, though. I honestly believe there is a bright future ahead for you. Whatever happens, you'll have a friend in me by your side.

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I'm sorry. milestogobefore March 28 2008, 12:28:35 UTC
I'm coming around. I've just finished the fluffy pink for your couch.

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Me too love_catatonic March 28 2008, 12:29:37 UTC
Oh Von...

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<3 milestogobefore March 28 2008, 12:31:06 UTC
Yes, that is, indeed, me. ::smiles:: Fluff-bearing Von.

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