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Hey Scarlett?
Things suck. Majorly.
Except I just remembered your house got broken into and you all got hurt so you probably have enough to deal with. Shit, now I'm being selfish as well. And talking to myself, now, because I'm not posting this to you... What is wrong with me? Why did I let myself believe a word she said? Why did I let myself think she would stop lying to me just because she said she had? Why was I so fucking stupid?
I really want to hurt her. I've never wanted to hurt anyone so much. I hate it. I hate it! I don't hurt people! That's not what I do! And yet I just want to make her suffer and I'm a goddamn stupid horrible person. I shouldn't have trusted her, it's my own fault I got hurt. Should have known better. And now it hurts so bad I wanna hurt something else and I just... can't... be that person.
I gotta do something. Want to scratch myself right out of my skin but can't let myself. Can't self destruct, can't destruct anyone else. It's so stupid!
Things suck. Majorly.
Except I just remembered your house got broken into and you all got hurt so you probably have enough to deal with. Shit, now I'm being selfish as well. And talking to myself, now, because I'm not posting this to you... What is wrong with me? Why did I let myself believe a word she said? Why did I let myself think she would stop lying to me just because she said she had? Why was I so fucking stupid?
I really want to hurt her. I've never wanted to hurt anyone so much. I hate it. I hate it! I don't hurt people! That's not what I do! And yet I just want to make her suffer and I'm a goddamn stupid horrible person. I shouldn't have trusted her, it's my own fault I got hurt. Should have known better. And now it hurts so bad I wanna hurt something else and I just... can't... be that person.
I gotta do something. Want to scratch myself right out of my skin but can't let myself. Can't self destruct, can't destruct anyone else. It's so stupid!