but now i know that life doesn't always go my way....

[love_caroline]

i've been having some really bad days lately.
bad weeks.
but today i went for two long walks. i listened to my ipod; dashboard, some ashlee and hilary duff and just walked around my town, thinking. just thinking
about life. about friends. about guys. about how i've been feeling lately. about memories. about past days. about the future.
pretty much about everything.
see here's the thing:
i always expect life to be perfect.
and there are times when i'll say, "my life is perfect!" or "i love life!" and then when i'm sad, i'll look back on those times and want them back.
and i'll think--oh back then life was perfect, why can't it be now??
but you know what?
it's about how you interpret life. it's about how you handle the things that happen day by day. and maybe on a really good day, life does seem perfect, and on a bad day it doesn't.
anyway, i guess i'll be okay now. it's just that all this stuff with guy(s) is really making me sad..
it's really amazing how one dumb loser can ruin everything!!
also amazing how i can't
let
things
go
when
they
are
O V E R !! !! !! !!