I hate to watch you leave, but I love to watch you go.

Aug 11, 2009 16:41

This wasn't the way I wanted things to go. I had plans for us. Big plans. But in the end. I'm the same me I was back then. And you are the same you. There's no mystery to be solved, no game to be played, we can deny, deny, deny all we want to, but the truth is always there. Always will be. And I can't resist, until you give the truth a little twist...

I'm moving onto a new part in my life. "I never thought we'd be done in a minuet but now I'm making plans and you're not in them." I don't want a half relationship. I don't want half of your heart. I don't want half of your time. I don't want to be a past time of yours. I don't want to be an escape, or an excuse. I want to be your everything. I want to be the one. The only one. I want to be of the highest importance. I want to be all you think about and all you dream about it. I want it all. And baby, I don't beleive I'm asking for too much because everything I'm looking for I give it to you freely. Just imagine if that was gone. If I was gone. If you can tell me you can stand it, that you could live without it, then I'm not the girl for you. And this isn't the right relationship for you.

Lucas: Brooke, I never meant to hurt you.
Brooke: That doesn't really matter, Lucas. 'Cause in the end it all hurts just the same.
Brooke: I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. 'Cause you hurt me so bad, and I was afraid to be vulnerable. And I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. And I know that doesn't matter now after what I did, but I just thought that you should know. This was how I spent my summer, Luke, wanting you... I'm just too scared to admit it.

There's a point where things reach the level of, "Too little too late." The fact of the matter is, if you wanted me, you would have had me. If you wanted this, you would be here. If I mattered, you'd rise up at every challenge. If you cared, we'd be talking about our feelings, because I'm going through an extremely difficult time right now. If you loved me, you'd kiss me and love me every second, and let it show. You wouldn't hold back. But there are sides to you I don't see. And there are parts of you that are unknown. And there are questions unaswered. I'm tired of always being the one to lose. The one to fall for the surprise. Well, not this time. Not. This. Time. If you want this, you'll step it up, if not then it really wasn't meant to be. And it's time I set you free...
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