Its final...
Married life, aint it grand? I don't think I could glow any brighter. Within two days I'm made a mom and a wife. Tyler's amazing. He looks exactly like his dad. Daddy's boy is what Hayden calls him.
So Hayden and I tied the knot.. untie the knot *falls over laughing* Everything was amazing with the exception of an unexpected visitor who was taken care of. I'm pretty good with a gun come to think of it. No I didn't kill him... just made him jump a little.
I've been doing some thinking, dangerous I know. But I realize that when you are younger, even when your older, that you parents are really protective of you. And then there's that concert you want to go with no adults, just your best friend. And of course your best friends' parents are wicked cool and they let her go, but your parents are like, NO WAY! And you hate them and scream and they always sat, "When you have kids, you'll understand." Then you totally blow them off and say, "When I have kids, I'll let them do whatever they want" stomp up to your room and slam the door. God, how right they were. Now that I have Tyler, I will give up ANYTHING to keep him safe. Absoulty anything. And this made me realize why my father was so upset with me. I'm little girl, the one he did everything for. Wiped away my tears, stood by me, put up with me for 20 years. Kept me safe... he sacrificed his world to make me happy. And then he finds out his little girl is old enough to make her own descions, get married, have kids, and that these things are tearing me away from him. After all he's done, I'm making a choice that he doesn't want for me, and it scares him. It scares him that I don't need him to hold my hand and to depend on him so much. He'll always be my daddy, forever and always, I just grew up. Daddy, I know you read this and I am sorry. I'm not sorry for being happy, but I am sorry for hurting you because now, as a mother, I realize how much you did give up for me. Thank you daddy. I love you no matter what, no matter what you say.
*breathes sigh of relief* that felt good.
No shoutouts.. Tyler's wants his momma. Love ya'll!
<3 Anna
So Hayden and I tied the knot.. untie the knot *falls over laughing* Everything was amazing with the exception of an unexpected visitor who was taken care of. I'm pretty good with a gun come to think of it. No I didn't kill him... just made him jump a little.
I've been doing some thinking, dangerous I know. But I realize that when you are younger, even when your older, that you parents are really protective of you. And then there's that concert you want to go with no adults, just your best friend. And of course your best friends' parents are wicked cool and they let her go, but your parents are like, NO WAY! And you hate them and scream and they always sat, "When you have kids, you'll understand." Then you totally blow them off and say, "When I have kids, I'll let them do whatever they want" stomp up to your room and slam the door. God, how right they were. Now that I have Tyler, I will give up ANYTHING to keep him safe. Absoulty anything. And this made me realize why my father was so upset with me. I'm little girl, the one he did everything for. Wiped away my tears, stood by me, put up with me for 20 years. Kept me safe... he sacrificed his world to make me happy. And then he finds out his little girl is old enough to make her own descions, get married, have kids, and that these things are tearing me away from him. After all he's done, I'm making a choice that he doesn't want for me, and it scares him. It scares him that I don't need him to hold my hand and to depend on him so much. He'll always be my daddy, forever and always, I just grew up. Daddy, I know you read this and I am sorry. I'm not sorry for being happy, but I am sorry for hurting you because now, as a mother, I realize how much you did give up for me. Thank you daddy. I love you no matter what, no matter what you say.
*breathes sigh of relief* that felt good.
No shoutouts.. Tyler's wants his momma. Love ya'll!
<3 Anna