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wow. so i've just had the most wonderful experience in my life, and it is called PLAY.
i can't belive how many friends i made, how i've changed.
im a new person, that crazy girl that ive wanted to be for so long, and its all cause of play.
everyone in it is soo wonderful & i love them all.
im gonna miss them soooo much. i dont know what im going to do during the week.
i know that i am going to wake up tomorrow morning, think that i have to get my stuff together for the show, and then cry because i know that its over.
i cry when ive had amazing experiences, i dont like it.
i cannot wait till next year's production. fucking im gonna try soo hard at the audition and never ever miss a practice.
i remember how all i wanted to do was find an excuse to miss practice when they first started. towards the end i never missed one. i love all of the play members. GOD!!!!!!!! im gonna cry soo much tomorrow.
sometimes i regret the things i do, the things i say; but then i remember that better things come from my mistakes and then they become just a memory, just a lesson learned the hard way. the scars the tears left vanish, the lines from smiling reappear and life is good again. i just need to find the road that leads me back to happiness, cause ive been lost in confusion for too long and its messing with my heart. i just wish it didn't hurt so badly to move on, because i wanna smile for some other reason that just thinking about memories. memories that don't repeat themselves, that hurt to think about when i realize how long ago they happened. i need to control how i am, i need to back off and let good things come to me, because obviously when i think ive found them, i become clingy and loose them just as fast as they came at me. i wish my heart was made of stone just this once, so that i didnt have to feel like the world has just come to an end. i hope it starts spinning again soon, because i can't let another mistake like this ruin my life.
i can't belive how many friends i made, how i've changed.
im a new person, that crazy girl that ive wanted to be for so long, and its all cause of play.
everyone in it is soo wonderful & i love them all.
im gonna miss them soooo much. i dont know what im going to do during the week.
i know that i am going to wake up tomorrow morning, think that i have to get my stuff together for the show, and then cry because i know that its over.
i cry when ive had amazing experiences, i dont like it.
i cannot wait till next year's production. fucking im gonna try soo hard at the audition and never ever miss a practice.
i remember how all i wanted to do was find an excuse to miss practice when they first started. towards the end i never missed one. i love all of the play members. GOD!!!!!!!! im gonna cry soo much tomorrow.
sometimes i regret the things i do, the things i say; but then i remember that better things come from my mistakes and then they become just a memory, just a lesson learned the hard way. the scars the tears left vanish, the lines from smiling reappear and life is good again. i just need to find the road that leads me back to happiness, cause ive been lost in confusion for too long and its messing with my heart. i just wish it didn't hurt so badly to move on, because i wanna smile for some other reason that just thinking about memories. memories that don't repeat themselves, that hurt to think about when i realize how long ago they happened. i need to control how i am, i need to back off and let good things come to me, because obviously when i think ive found them, i become clingy and loose them just as fast as they came at me. i wish my heart was made of stone just this once, so that i didnt have to feel like the world has just come to an end. i hope it starts spinning again soon, because i can't let another mistake like this ruin my life.