Right.
So I'm pretty...annoyed. Or something. I don't know I just feel let down.
So I really liked Chad. Like...more than I have liked anyone in a really long time. I get the vibe that he likes me back. We talk for hours. We cuddle. We flirt. It's nice. He then procedes to fall off the face of the earth and be too busy to call me or talk to me in any way, shape or form. He then comes back to life and says we need to talk...and then dies again? *scratches head* Ok that's not confusing at all.
And then there is John. We go out for...awhile. He says he can't take dating me because it's like "living in a fish bowl" and that it feels like someone is always watching us. I'm a great girl yadda yadda but he really doesn't see us working out...we live on opposite coasts, his career is taking off, excuse excuse. OK. So then...he comes around again. Asks me to come to NYC. I do. It's nice, we talk, we joke, we feel comfy. I tell him I miss him. I miss us. He says he does too. Then I come back to LA and he stops talking to me. THEN he comes back to life, tells me he's in LA and wants to stop by. I'm excited. He never comes over....*blinks* OK?
I really don't know what is going on in my head or in my heart. It's not like...I had either of these guys but it was like...there, ya know? On the tip of my tongue, on the edge of maybe, hovering on what if? Does this make any sense?
I am really beginning to think something is wrong with me. It's not like I expected anything from either of them...from anyone. I mean, beyond at least keeping in contact with me or being up front with me...is that really too much to ask? gah!
My whole life all I've wanted is to fall in love. Real, true, hardcore fairy tale love. I'm not about to just OFFER myself up to just anyone though, it's not like that. When it's right, it's just..right. *shrugs* I'm frustrated because I see potential in areas that obviously aren't responding and I'm always left empty handed. Guess things just aren't...right.
Not to mention...the fact that I've been having thoughts about a guy who I really shouldn't because it's one of those situations where you just don't cross that line ya know? Cuz he's...*blinks* I'm stopping this entry right here.
So I really liked Chad. Like...more than I have liked anyone in a really long time. I get the vibe that he likes me back. We talk for hours. We cuddle. We flirt. It's nice. He then procedes to fall off the face of the earth and be too busy to call me or talk to me in any way, shape or form. He then comes back to life and says we need to talk...and then dies again? *scratches head* Ok that's not confusing at all.
And then there is John. We go out for...awhile. He says he can't take dating me because it's like "living in a fish bowl" and that it feels like someone is always watching us. I'm a great girl yadda yadda but he really doesn't see us working out...we live on opposite coasts, his career is taking off, excuse excuse. OK. So then...he comes around again. Asks me to come to NYC. I do. It's nice, we talk, we joke, we feel comfy. I tell him I miss him. I miss us. He says he does too. Then I come back to LA and he stops talking to me. THEN he comes back to life, tells me he's in LA and wants to stop by. I'm excited. He never comes over....*blinks* OK?
I really don't know what is going on in my head or in my heart. It's not like...I had either of these guys but it was like...there, ya know? On the tip of my tongue, on the edge of maybe, hovering on what if? Does this make any sense?
I am really beginning to think something is wrong with me. It's not like I expected anything from either of them...from anyone. I mean, beyond at least keeping in contact with me or being up front with me...is that really too much to ask? gah!
My whole life all I've wanted is to fall in love. Real, true, hardcore fairy tale love. I'm not about to just OFFER myself up to just anyone though, it's not like that. When it's right, it's just..right. *shrugs* I'm frustrated because I see potential in areas that obviously aren't responding and I'm always left empty handed. Guess things just aren't...right.
Not to mention...the fact that I've been having thoughts about a guy who I really shouldn't because it's one of those situations where you just don't cross that line ya know? Cuz he's...*blinks* I'm stopping this entry right here.