Pierced from the middle, frozen on the inside
I'm frustrated. That can be written down officially but my agent will answer all other questions. Thank you for your time.
I feel like I tripped and fell and lost a part of myself. *pauses, rereading that* Wow, I guess that's exactly what I did, hmm?
I'm dumb and I should never have said how I was feeling. To him or to anyone. I'm sure it was just the old familiarity rushing back to me...that twisted me in a knot the way it did. It's really easy to remember the good isn't it? *nods slightly, twisting her hair between her fingers* Seeing John was like stirring up this part of me that has been buried since...well since we were together. *shrugs slightly* It felt really nice to joke and be casual with him. Comfortable. It really was.
...Until I went and ruined it...
Being home has already helped. I can feel myself growing apart from those old feelings a teenie tiny bit and I'm not sure if I'm tearing myself from them or if they are leaving willingly. *sucks on her bottom lip* I'm scared though, that maybe I missed something...? I dunno. He hasn't brought it up and I'm not. Not again.
It's sort of hard to find someone who will understand your babble on any level..so when someone takes the time out to listen, it's...settling *nods quickly* It's very nice. So thank you Chris for that. *smiles*
Maybe I'm just not good enough for anyone...
I feel like I tripped and fell and lost a part of myself. *pauses, rereading that* Wow, I guess that's exactly what I did, hmm?
I'm dumb and I should never have said how I was feeling. To him or to anyone. I'm sure it was just the old familiarity rushing back to me...that twisted me in a knot the way it did. It's really easy to remember the good isn't it? *nods slightly, twisting her hair between her fingers* Seeing John was like stirring up this part of me that has been buried since...well since we were together. *shrugs slightly* It felt really nice to joke and be casual with him. Comfortable. It really was.
...Until I went and ruined it...
Being home has already helped. I can feel myself growing apart from those old feelings a teenie tiny bit and I'm not sure if I'm tearing myself from them or if they are leaving willingly. *sucks on her bottom lip* I'm scared though, that maybe I missed something...? I dunno. He hasn't brought it up and I'm not. Not again.
It's sort of hard to find someone who will understand your babble on any level..so when someone takes the time out to listen, it's...settling *nods quickly* It's very nice. So thank you Chris for that. *smiles*
Maybe I'm just not good enough for anyone...