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I haven't updated in forever and so i thought i should at least say how i'm doing lately. i've been really good, having sooo much fun being a senior finally and continuing my great friendships with my best friends. up until tonight i havent felt upset or anything. i dunno even exactly what set it all off inside me, but it really reminded me of last year and some of the mistakes i made. but the thing is, this time i think i actually like him. which is weird. i mean, yes last year i did like that kid, alot, he was my best friend, but now i like this new kid and it's just so frusterating, everything. for weeks hes shown that he likes me and now i'm starting to doubt myself and it all. i finally let go and told sammy everything i was feeling, it was so nice to finally tell someone. and theres no better person in the world than her. i love you sammy, you're amazing and i'm so lucky to have you as a best friend, i forgot how great you are with helping me with issues. anyway, i knwo this is boring and stupid but i just needed to get out my feelings. and im also procrastinating on my paper thats due tomorrow. haha anyway, i think i'm gonna be okay. i think i'm just gonna let it be how it is, and see how it unfolds, cuz who knows? maybe sammys right, maybe hes intimidated by me, maybe he actually does like me and afraid to truly show it. all i know is that im gonna be extra careful this time, cuz now im stronger and more mature than last year and i can handle it all. ok i'm done, love you all...
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