It's almost here.
4 days to go, and all is well.
I've accomplished must of my list from the other day and also handled a few small snags that came up. I've finalized with our baker, florist, reception venue and dj. I also made a bazillion phone calls to members of the wedding party reminding them about rehearsal on friday. I have a very small list to accomplish this week, which is great. I think my biggest concern now is that everything that we need gets packed up into bags/tubs and is put into the cars to go to the church/hall/etc. as we live about 15 minutes from Sheboygan, where everything is taking place. I'm going to run down everything that needs to be taken care of on Friday night with my sister (post rehearsal dinner at home) to ensure that everything has been taken care of. And then relax.
Actually, I am fairly relaxed. 10 months of planning is coming into fruition; everything is on schedule. I don't sweat the small stuff. I'm planning on getting a pedicure this week as well as tanning twice more. Maybe a little other home-remedy-pampering too. :)
However, I had a very good cry last night. I was just missing my mom so much, my heart hurt. She tried so hard to be here for our wedding; just to be here period. I know that she'll be with me on Saturday, as she is with me everyday - that's understood and all. I... miss her physical presence, her laughter, her hugs.. her. I'm thinking about asking the pastor if I can light her floral arrangement candle before the guests start coming on Saturday. Or maybe have my sister do it. I don't want to be as emotional as I was last night about my grief, on Saturday. I know that I'll miss her, but she wouldn't want me to cry; she'd want us all to celebrate and laugh. Maybe it's good I've been teary-eyed the past few days about this all; Ken just holds me and passes the tissue. Reason #1,405,063 that I'm marrying Ken: He lets me grieve in my own way and loves me for it.
I've accomplished must of my list from the other day and also handled a few small snags that came up. I've finalized with our baker, florist, reception venue and dj. I also made a bazillion phone calls to members of the wedding party reminding them about rehearsal on friday. I have a very small list to accomplish this week, which is great. I think my biggest concern now is that everything that we need gets packed up into bags/tubs and is put into the cars to go to the church/hall/etc. as we live about 15 minutes from Sheboygan, where everything is taking place. I'm going to run down everything that needs to be taken care of on Friday night with my sister (post rehearsal dinner at home) to ensure that everything has been taken care of. And then relax.
Actually, I am fairly relaxed. 10 months of planning is coming into fruition; everything is on schedule. I don't sweat the small stuff. I'm planning on getting a pedicure this week as well as tanning twice more. Maybe a little other home-remedy-pampering too. :)
However, I had a very good cry last night. I was just missing my mom so much, my heart hurt. She tried so hard to be here for our wedding; just to be here period. I know that she'll be with me on Saturday, as she is with me everyday - that's understood and all. I... miss her physical presence, her laughter, her hugs.. her. I'm thinking about asking the pastor if I can light her floral arrangement candle before the guests start coming on Saturday. Or maybe have my sister do it. I don't want to be as emotional as I was last night about my grief, on Saturday. I know that I'll miss her, but she wouldn't want me to cry; she'd want us all to celebrate and laugh. Maybe it's good I've been teary-eyed the past few days about this all; Ken just holds me and passes the tissue. Reason #1,405,063 that I'm marrying Ken: He lets me grieve in my own way and loves me for it.