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Another one of prestons songs.... He told me he wrote it and it was for someone, but I am sooo scared to ask who for bc what if he says its for Kelci!?!? I got kiked out of my house today, not for too long tho. But yeah, I cried soo bad, and I got my cell and Prestons number was first dialed on it, so I called him, but then i freaked out and on the 2nd ring i hung up and he called me back, and I told him what went on and he didnt say ne thing but that its happened to him. But we talked for a while, then his sister kiked him off the phone. I sent Emily a pic of him and she thinks hes a hottie! lol....but yeah, ne ways, i got back online, after having this a/m on "
read if u must.
I'm so sick of getting hurt, lied to, lead on, bitched at for no reson and everything... I am just gonna give up on it all. I thought I had something good, but I guess not....
Eventually, I will get over it, as I did before, but for now, I'm not over it. I just hope I don't end up like before (Most of you know what I am talking about.)
I am eating and cleaning (*starts singing Cinderella song)....if u want me, call my house.... later"
and now, his away message says "2: ...im sorry....i cant help what my head does and my heart feels..."
So I think that has something to do with my a/m, but I am not sure yet, and since he still isnt back yet, i cant ask him! But i wanna cry so bad. Like, i read my real journal thingy and i dont know what happened, I mean, it was all about how he was sooo sweet to me and how much he liked me and how beautiful i was and now it says that he thinks i am a slut and all this stuff! and like i remember asking him how he knew he would still like me by rtu and he said how couldnt i...and now ...he doesnt.....I guess, I should juss give up. It seems to me everyone is doing that. Elyse doesnt liek Chris ne more, idk bout Lisa and Estone, they maybe the only ones who still care. Leanne and Matt, Preston and Me. Me and Kirk (that goes both ways) I dont know, maybe RTU will be different when we see each other agen!
Well, im gonna go....here is the song.
This Hearts Love Story
If i only knew
How this would feel
I never would have fallin for you
If you only knew
How i felt
Would it have made a difference
Im fallin faster
Ive got you here in me
Is he what you really want
Or just a cover story
I wish i could tell you
Just what i know
That my heart is crying out for you
I wonder if he
Is what you want
Does he honestly deserve you
But why do i matter
Were so far away
You probably dont think we'd last
But i tell you
I'd make it work
I'd do anything for you
Im fallin faster
I've got you here in me
I wish i could tell you
My hearts love story...
read if u must.
I'm so sick of getting hurt, lied to, lead on, bitched at for no reson and everything... I am just gonna give up on it all. I thought I had something good, but I guess not....
Eventually, I will get over it, as I did before, but for now, I'm not over it. I just hope I don't end up like before (Most of you know what I am talking about.)
I am eating and cleaning (*starts singing Cinderella song)....if u want me, call my house.... later"
and now, his away message says "2: ...im sorry....i cant help what my head does and my heart feels..."
So I think that has something to do with my a/m, but I am not sure yet, and since he still isnt back yet, i cant ask him! But i wanna cry so bad. Like, i read my real journal thingy and i dont know what happened, I mean, it was all about how he was sooo sweet to me and how much he liked me and how beautiful i was and now it says that he thinks i am a slut and all this stuff! and like i remember asking him how he knew he would still like me by rtu and he said how couldnt i...and now ...he doesnt.....I guess, I should juss give up. It seems to me everyone is doing that. Elyse doesnt liek Chris ne more, idk bout Lisa and Estone, they maybe the only ones who still care. Leanne and Matt, Preston and Me. Me and Kirk (that goes both ways) I dont know, maybe RTU will be different when we see each other agen!
Well, im gonna go....here is the song.
This Hearts Love Story
If i only knew
How this would feel
I never would have fallin for you
If you only knew
How i felt
Would it have made a difference
Im fallin faster
Ive got you here in me
Is he what you really want
Or just a cover story
I wish i could tell you
Just what i know
That my heart is crying out for you
I wonder if he
Is what you want
Does he honestly deserve you
But why do i matter
Were so far away
You probably dont think we'd last
But i tell you
I'd make it work
I'd do anything for you
Im fallin faster
I've got you here in me
I wish i could tell you
My hearts love story...