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...Valentine's Day.
Lets see...
It snowed like crazy last night (and all day) and that caused campus to be closed for the day, which was great because who doesn't love a wednesday off?! Jess, Steffy, and I went to lunch and the post office, and then spent our day watching Overboard, The Notebook (bad choice), She;s the Man, and Failure to Launch. Now I'm watching The Little Mermaid... I love Ariel and Eric, they're so cute.
I wish so much that I had Shawn to spend this cozy/lazy day with. That was the downside about not having classes, there was lots and lots of time to think. About whether I would hear from him [I didnt :,( ] Whether he was OK, how much I miss him, how proud I am of what he's doing and who he is, how much I love him, and how badly I want to tell him. I just miss him so much. Its our first Valentine's day... and I really don't think its that that bummed me out so much; yes, Valentine's day is all nice and romantic... but the idea of love, and being in it any day of the year. I just don't like celebrating that I'm in love by myself.
Why can't we all live our lives like Disney movies? haha... there's a dream.
I even took my phoen to the shower with me today... I haven't cried yet... well, during the notebook I didd, but I am so reluctant to go to bed, because I know that its going to kill me inside. I just want to go to bed with my baby. I want to feel his heart beat in sync with mine, I want to watch him sleep as peacefully as an innocent little baby, I want to curl up in his arms and sleep as if hypnotized by our love and our comfort with each other. I thought this would help... I think its making it worse. And to add to all this "fun" my tummy is really bothering me... oh dear =( I guess I can't avoid sleep any longer, I highly doubt classes will be cancelled tomorrow, so I'll have to wake up in the morning.
...happy valentines day, i hope yours was more pleasant than mine...
God bless our Troops <3
Lets see...
It snowed like crazy last night (and all day) and that caused campus to be closed for the day, which was great because who doesn't love a wednesday off?! Jess, Steffy, and I went to lunch and the post office, and then spent our day watching Overboard, The Notebook (bad choice), She;s the Man, and Failure to Launch. Now I'm watching The Little Mermaid... I love Ariel and Eric, they're so cute.
I wish so much that I had Shawn to spend this cozy/lazy day with. That was the downside about not having classes, there was lots and lots of time to think. About whether I would hear from him [I didnt :,( ] Whether he was OK, how much I miss him, how proud I am of what he's doing and who he is, how much I love him, and how badly I want to tell him. I just miss him so much. Its our first Valentine's day... and I really don't think its that that bummed me out so much; yes, Valentine's day is all nice and romantic... but the idea of love, and being in it any day of the year. I just don't like celebrating that I'm in love by myself.
Why can't we all live our lives like Disney movies? haha... there's a dream.
I even took my phoen to the shower with me today... I haven't cried yet... well, during the notebook I didd, but I am so reluctant to go to bed, because I know that its going to kill me inside. I just want to go to bed with my baby. I want to feel his heart beat in sync with mine, I want to watch him sleep as peacefully as an innocent little baby, I want to curl up in his arms and sleep as if hypnotized by our love and our comfort with each other. I thought this would help... I think its making it worse. And to add to all this "fun" my tummy is really bothering me... oh dear =( I guess I can't avoid sleep any longer, I highly doubt classes will be cancelled tomorrow, so I'll have to wake up in the morning.
...happy valentines day, i hope yours was more pleasant than mine...
God bless our Troops <3