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Even being as busy andd preoccupied as I am... I'm afraid to go to bed. Why? because whenever I lie down at night, its the lonliest, emptiest feeling I get. I just want Shawn to be there with me... its been a few days since I've cried... and thats good... I can't let Shawn's deployment dictate my life... but its just so hard. I dont think anyone gets it.. and thats really not helpful.