I don't know what to do...
Alright, I know it’s been forever since I’ve updated…again…but let me just say, that it’s mostly Myspace.com’s fault! My cousin wasn’t joking, it is so addicting! Whenever I have time to get on the computer, I’m usually on myspace. So, if you guys have one, request me as a friend cuz that would be cool! My profile name is just Keri. I love having a myspcae! I’ve met some great people off of it lol.
Now, onto some more serious issues. So lately I’ve been hanging out with this guy that I met, who is really cool, so funny, and way cute! We met a few weeks ago and when we first met, we talked on the phone for about 4 hours each night for a week, and one night we even talked for 6 hours! It was so crazy, but way fun! And then he started getting busy at work so we haven’t been talking as much as we used to, and not nearly as long on the phone, only like an hour. We’ve hung out 2 times so far. I know it’s weird, but it seems like we’ve been friends for a few years lol. However, I don’t know what it is, but now we hardly ever talk. I guess I’ll just come clean about the situation. I kinda did something bad with him, not the worse thing that I could do, but something no one would expect me to do, and some thing that I’ve never done before, and now it’s kinda hard for me not to feel like he just used me. I don’t want to believe it, but what else am I suppose to think? Yeah he’s busy working 2nd shift and over time and stuff, but lately he’s just seemed uninterested, and it hurts. Do you know when the last time a guy was interested in me? Like 2 years! And I’m not even joking!
I keep telling myself that I’m not going to let it bother me and that I can get over it if he did use me or whatever, but it’s so hard to listen to myself. I’m so tired of not having some one and having to listen to my friends mushy love relationships. It sucks! I want to be one of those people with mushy love stories! I wish I could just go places and meet people, but I hardly have any time cuz I’m always working, and where is there to go to meet people besides the club? I dunno…
I’m just so tired of being alone. I really want some one to need me and want me like I need and want them. How much longer am I going to have to meet my guy? A week? 3 months? 5 years? I’m so tired of waiting.
I know I sound greedy, but I can’t help it! I just want what everyone else has…
Now, onto some more serious issues. So lately I’ve been hanging out with this guy that I met, who is really cool, so funny, and way cute! We met a few weeks ago and when we first met, we talked on the phone for about 4 hours each night for a week, and one night we even talked for 6 hours! It was so crazy, but way fun! And then he started getting busy at work so we haven’t been talking as much as we used to, and not nearly as long on the phone, only like an hour. We’ve hung out 2 times so far. I know it’s weird, but it seems like we’ve been friends for a few years lol. However, I don’t know what it is, but now we hardly ever talk. I guess I’ll just come clean about the situation. I kinda did something bad with him, not the worse thing that I could do, but something no one would expect me to do, and some thing that I’ve never done before, and now it’s kinda hard for me not to feel like he just used me. I don’t want to believe it, but what else am I suppose to think? Yeah he’s busy working 2nd shift and over time and stuff, but lately he’s just seemed uninterested, and it hurts. Do you know when the last time a guy was interested in me? Like 2 years! And I’m not even joking!
I keep telling myself that I’m not going to let it bother me and that I can get over it if he did use me or whatever, but it’s so hard to listen to myself. I’m so tired of not having some one and having to listen to my friends mushy love relationships. It sucks! I want to be one of those people with mushy love stories! I wish I could just go places and meet people, but I hardly have any time cuz I’m always working, and where is there to go to meet people besides the club? I dunno…
I’m just so tired of being alone. I really want some one to need me and want me like I need and want them. How much longer am I going to have to meet my guy? A week? 3 months? 5 years? I’m so tired of waiting.
I know I sound greedy, but I can’t help it! I just want what everyone else has…