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I leave tomorrow. Everything is packed. I drove by the house where I grew up tonight and called my best friend, her phone died soon after we got on the phone...but she wrote me a great email...here it is. I dunno why exactly I am sharing this with you...but, I'm just at that point, I suppose.
Nana~
I know that this time of year is very hard for you. But now your building your own life and a new one. You should be very proud of yourself for everything you have accomplished. I know I am very proud of you. We are becoming adults! Before it sounded sooo exciting but at times it can be scary but know that what ever obstacles come your way I will always be here. I can't believe you are leaving our home town just like I have. I guess as we get older we realize that there is allot more to seek then what stands out side our bedroom windows. I'll never forget right before I left someone once told me "have faith not in what you see but in the unknown." To everyone that means something different but in either case it means more then one thing. At the end of everything that I had in Oregon there was too much pain for me to stay. I knew if I did I wouldn't make anything of myself I was sooo trapped in everything I wanted to be that I lost myself along the way. I know it sounds like I was running away from a bad situation as I have most of my life but this time it was to find me, the real me and not what I thought I wanted to be. You may be wondering why now all of a sudden am I professing to all of this, the reason why is because I want you to know that I know what you are going through. I still think about where we grew up and the way things use to be but we were both children. I wish I could go back to that innocence once more but at the same time I wouldn't want to because it wouldn't be the same. Through all the turbulence we went through growing up we had that much more good times that I would never take back. The only thing I wish I could have the most is you in the same state. One day I know we will be in the same state in one point in time but for now it is about new experiences and growing up. Even though there is a border between us it will never stop us from growing together into the woman we are supposed to be. This letter is to let you know that I love you always and forever and good luck. You know I'm always a phone call away.
Colie