is it my fate?
is it my fate to hurt everyone who deserves the best? why am i so decieving to those who are so pure. how come, when i try to keep myself from hurting someone, i end up hurting them even more. i hate myself for hurting him.... carnival boy and i are over from my doing. he promised me such nice things and i so visciously refused them by ending our relationship before it even began. i just wish he knew i cared. i hope he doesn't hurt himself.
i can't do much more than i've already done.. i just hope he's okay.
other than the doom and gloom... i've started seeing a hottie... with an anorexic body! (thats supposed to be funny, laugh minions! laugh!) and he is a very feminine boy (looks like edward scissor hands) and he's very sweet... he says i should grow my hair long, and he said that i should dye my eyebrows black. I never dyed my eyebrows in my life... until today! i tried but the pictures refuse to post, but anyway.
also... this is my first song... tell me what you think?
what hell has brought me broken wings
who is this heaven gluing them to me
i feel like i'm falling more than flying
what am i
despite your cruelty i'm not alright
why can't i feel feel like happy people do
what is it that keeps me falling from you
our last moments the blood on my hands
why can't we be who we were at that end
My soul is forsaken sweetly
I can't remember what it was like to breath
Wings don't work, drowning in the water
I thought you told me you were happy I was....
I was..... I was happy....
Can you feel the cracking in my spine
You weren't there to hold me things weren't so fine
I feel like i'm falling and i could die
But who is there to save me
Why is it you that can't take me
Sometimes I feel like these wings will break me
why can't i feel feel like happy people do
what is it that keeps me falling from you
we had our moments the blood on your hands
why can't we be who are in the end
if only i could breath but i'm suffocating
where were you then when I was breaking
You think this is something so escaping
But i found you, I found you
before you could fly
Leave me, breath me lonely
I found you holding me
Why is this dream suddenly so pleasant
Why have you come back
Why have you come back
I'm dreaming and I don't want to wake up
Why did we do this why can't we make up
I know you lied and I could have died
But this isn't the end of our lives
but I can't feel feel like happy people do
My wings always keep me falling from you
we had our fall out the bloods in my heart
why aren't we who we are.
happy people feel don't they feel
i think they're lonely but they don't seem so real
happy people don't feel, don't feel
happy people aren't really that real....
i can't do much more than i've already done.. i just hope he's okay.
other than the doom and gloom... i've started seeing a hottie... with an anorexic body! (thats supposed to be funny, laugh minions! laugh!) and he is a very feminine boy (looks like edward scissor hands) and he's very sweet... he says i should grow my hair long, and he said that i should dye my eyebrows black. I never dyed my eyebrows in my life... until today! i tried but the pictures refuse to post, but anyway.
also... this is my first song... tell me what you think?
what hell has brought me broken wings
who is this heaven gluing them to me
i feel like i'm falling more than flying
what am i
despite your cruelty i'm not alright
why can't i feel feel like happy people do
what is it that keeps me falling from you
our last moments the blood on my hands
why can't we be who we were at that end
My soul is forsaken sweetly
I can't remember what it was like to breath
Wings don't work, drowning in the water
I thought you told me you were happy I was....
I was..... I was happy....
Can you feel the cracking in my spine
You weren't there to hold me things weren't so fine
I feel like i'm falling and i could die
But who is there to save me
Why is it you that can't take me
Sometimes I feel like these wings will break me
why can't i feel feel like happy people do
what is it that keeps me falling from you
we had our moments the blood on your hands
why can't we be who are in the end
if only i could breath but i'm suffocating
where were you then when I was breaking
You think this is something so escaping
But i found you, I found you
before you could fly
Leave me, breath me lonely
I found you holding me
Why is this dream suddenly so pleasant
Why have you come back
Why have you come back
I'm dreaming and I don't want to wake up
Why did we do this why can't we make up
I know you lied and I could have died
But this isn't the end of our lives
but I can't feel feel like happy people do
My wings always keep me falling from you
we had our fall out the bloods in my heart
why aren't we who we are.
happy people feel don't they feel
i think they're lonely but they don't seem so real
happy people don't feel, don't feel
happy people aren't really that real....