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its like 12 in the morning but i must update. you know how i do. yeah so like two weeks ago. i was going through some old pictures and i came across my pictures from my 8th or 9th birthday and my party was in connecticut at my grandmas house. and there was the one picture of me and a boy, at first i didnt recognized who the hell he was, and then i remembered. it was corey. corey, corey, corey. hmm i use to hate this kid with a passion when i was younger. i threw a rock at his brother which he had to get stitches. i felt really bad, but both of them held that against me for like ever. so yeah back to the point of the entry. i was looking at the picture and it brought back all of those memories from my summers in connecticut and staying out late with those kids. i kinda wish everything was like it was before when i was 8 everything was so care free and i didnt have to worry about half the things i do today. i know with an old friend lisa, we use to be attached to each other and since i live here in michigan i wasnt always there but whenever i was we would always hang out together. one time actually we tried running away lmfao we got to the end of the street and turned back because we thought there were cameras underground. yeah so that one picture i brought up before i was thinking about all of those times me and this one kid fought i really dont think we ever got along, but you now after awhile i developed a crush on him once i hit 10. everyone told me that he liked me too, but i was young what was i suppose to do. run up to him and be like hey we're 10 lets go do it. lmfao. i think maybe like 2 years later my grandma sold the house i was so upset but i couldnt really show everyone why i was mad. i 1. lost my best friend and all contact and 2. lost a kid that i liked for like 3 years. and then i forgot all about him and then when i looked at the picture it just brought back everything. those stupid fights and the crush i had on him. i just wish i could have gone back in time and changed somethings that had happend. i would have tryed much harder to keep in contact with everyone. i think everyday i mentally slap myself for the mistake. ew and it bothers me everyday, but im having progress and trying to see everyone since my little cousin is best friends with his sister. so yeah. sorry for the long entry. i had to say something to make myself feel better. lol

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