hoopla
Who actually reads this anymore? I know that Cena gets on here from time to time, and so does Maddy. I dunno if Deana does so much, and Nina? parents? Anyone? Honestly, my audience is slim to none, and I'm curious to know if my journaling efforts are often read, or if I'm doing this for my own sake. And if it's the latter, why censor myself as much as I do? Couldn't I curse and be completely open about all things? Yet if I did that, then this whole journal would be private, and knowing no one read this damn thing would make me want to rid of it all together. Do you catch my drift? Mainly, I want to know if and who really reads this, and if so -- would like a little more comments so that I know each journal entry has a meaning other than my own personal venting or... documenting.
That aside, this has definitely been one hell of a week. Month if you want to get right down to it, but we'll just say week. I've been negative more than I could forebode, and gotten less sleep than a pregnant lady with a bladder infection. I get Mon - Wed off at Bel Air now, and sometimes even Thursdays. This is due to school, since I told them I can't work those days, aaaand seeing that we have to meet the quota in man hours, my hours have technically been cut to 24. Now, aside the fact that I want only 24 hours a week, the union guarantees us a minimum of 24. I sure hope this next week is the last that I must work night shift, but since one of the guys is going on vacation, and it's the first full week for the new guy, I might go one more week after this. Beyond that, I should most definitely be closing.
I don't want to talk about that anymore. I'll pull a "Michael Savage" and digress onto the better aspects of life. Kasie's cute and living in our apartment is one of the greatest things ever. It's homey, comforting, and there's DVR. Oh man, do I love the DVR. I have class Monday nights and record 24 and Heroes every week while I'm in class. I come back (like tonight) and watch them with Kasie. We didn't watch 24 tonight though. It's a 2 hour special, and I have to wake up early to rehearse with UM jazz tomorrow -- so I figure hey, it's recorded. I'll wait. OI, but tomorrow I have a 2 pg paper due that I forgot about, but I go to work during the day. Basically, that's damn near impossible... but I've learned that what seems impossible is not! 2 jobs, school, relationship... I've made it work this whole time. Sure, I'm tired, but it's working. I know it won't work if I keep this up for a long time, so what did I do? I started to change it. I need time, money, sleep... so I figured out how to do just that. Heheh, I swear, "My Way" should be my theme song after this. Every time I hear that song I think, "Frank Sinatra, you SOB, I love you." Some days I just wanna sit on my balcony in the rain with light music and play my trumpet.
Anyways, I've been running Kasie and my finances (mostly just mine) to see how much I'll be making a month, minus bills, blah blah blah. It's looking very nice. Add in the fact that Mon thru Wed are basically completely off, I'll be a lot less stressed and sleep deprived. Maybe I'll work out in the mornings and eat breakfast every morning. No, a pop tart doesn't count. Eggs, sausage, cereal, toast, juice... all the good stuff. I've only had a great breakfast a few times thus far. I'll have more...
That aside, this has definitely been one hell of a week. Month if you want to get right down to it, but we'll just say week. I've been negative more than I could forebode, and gotten less sleep than a pregnant lady with a bladder infection. I get Mon - Wed off at Bel Air now, and sometimes even Thursdays. This is due to school, since I told them I can't work those days, aaaand seeing that we have to meet the quota in man hours, my hours have technically been cut to 24. Now, aside the fact that I want only 24 hours a week, the union guarantees us a minimum of 24. I sure hope this next week is the last that I must work night shift, but since one of the guys is going on vacation, and it's the first full week for the new guy, I might go one more week after this. Beyond that, I should most definitely be closing.
I don't want to talk about that anymore. I'll pull a "Michael Savage" and digress onto the better aspects of life. Kasie's cute and living in our apartment is one of the greatest things ever. It's homey, comforting, and there's DVR. Oh man, do I love the DVR. I have class Monday nights and record 24 and Heroes every week while I'm in class. I come back (like tonight) and watch them with Kasie. We didn't watch 24 tonight though. It's a 2 hour special, and I have to wake up early to rehearse with UM jazz tomorrow -- so I figure hey, it's recorded. I'll wait. OI, but tomorrow I have a 2 pg paper due that I forgot about, but I go to work during the day. Basically, that's damn near impossible... but I've learned that what seems impossible is not! 2 jobs, school, relationship... I've made it work this whole time. Sure, I'm tired, but it's working. I know it won't work if I keep this up for a long time, so what did I do? I started to change it. I need time, money, sleep... so I figured out how to do just that. Heheh, I swear, "My Way" should be my theme song after this. Every time I hear that song I think, "Frank Sinatra, you SOB, I love you." Some days I just wanna sit on my balcony in the rain with light music and play my trumpet.
Anyways, I've been running Kasie and my finances (mostly just mine) to see how much I'll be making a month, minus bills, blah blah blah. It's looking very nice. Add in the fact that Mon thru Wed are basically completely off, I'll be a lot less stressed and sleep deprived. Maybe I'll work out in the mornings and eat breakfast every morning. No, a pop tart doesn't count. Eggs, sausage, cereal, toast, juice... all the good stuff. I've only had a great breakfast a few times thus far. I'll have more...