i love guys
it's funny to think how much of an independent person I've become when it comes to both romantic and platonic relationships. I love people, but I never let myself become dependent on them for my own well-being.
That said, I also think (hope?) that I have become much more appreciative of everyone around me. i remember Parvaneh and I used to get into arguments because every time she'd say things like "aww, I love you!" I would respond with something like "hehe!" or "oh my god, i love pizza!" Of course, now (as Parvaneh can attest) I am much more likely to actually reciprocate the sentiment, or at least have some kind of genuine personal reaction. And I still love pizza.
Also, when it comes to romance, I am well over those phases of (1) just plain drooling whenever men are around and (2) just plain ignoring men. I'm into that third phase where I've learned to enjoy them, and finally control my spastic passive-agressive flirtation... I remember one night in NYC I completely IGNORED a really cute guy who was balls-out trying to get me to invite him to sit down next to me. he really tried. oh how things have changed.
The last little bit of this change is that I'm more comfortable with myself, my goals, and what I want with guys. I won't become dependent on someone, so I finally feel like I could handle a relationship, as long as the other half was relatively equal in the independence department. I'm learning to quickly tell how someone else feels about relationships and weed out the overnight-wedding-in-Vegas types...not for me. Call me a tortoise. Slow and steady! Life's too short to take it quickly (don't think too much about that or it won't make sense). oh joy, time for dinner!
I love you all!
That said, I also think (hope?) that I have become much more appreciative of everyone around me. i remember Parvaneh and I used to get into arguments because every time she'd say things like "aww, I love you!" I would respond with something like "hehe!" or "oh my god, i love pizza!" Of course, now (as Parvaneh can attest) I am much more likely to actually reciprocate the sentiment, or at least have some kind of genuine personal reaction. And I still love pizza.
Also, when it comes to romance, I am well over those phases of (1) just plain drooling whenever men are around and (2) just plain ignoring men. I'm into that third phase where I've learned to enjoy them, and finally control my spastic passive-agressive flirtation... I remember one night in NYC I completely IGNORED a really cute guy who was balls-out trying to get me to invite him to sit down next to me. he really tried. oh how things have changed.
The last little bit of this change is that I'm more comfortable with myself, my goals, and what I want with guys. I won't become dependent on someone, so I finally feel like I could handle a relationship, as long as the other half was relatively equal in the independence department. I'm learning to quickly tell how someone else feels about relationships and weed out the overnight-wedding-in-Vegas types...not for me. Call me a tortoise. Slow and steady! Life's too short to take it quickly (don't think too much about that or it won't make sense). oh joy, time for dinner!
I love you all!