I want to beat someone up
It seems like LJ is my main venting area. almost every entry laments about my life. i cant help it...
saturday was a beach day at rockaway beach. that was fun and all. cold ass water. sand felt cool and warm; just right. tanned legs and arms. buried people in sand.
what annoyed me was dinner. i didnt want to go but my friend, Miss Raunchy was like just come! im like ok. maybe i wont be so annoyed if i go with them. we got to the resteraunt. i went to the bathroom before we got seated. for some reason, i got this vibe that my seat would not be there. i love my friends and trust them but this vibe wouldnt go away. i was right. my seat was NOT there. the only seat left were next to the two morons i CANNOT eat with. every meal is their first meal. thats means they ALWAYS eat like their mommas NEVER feed them. by the time the food gets to me, i dont get any. then they wanna say, why is my plate empty? shit.... whatever. i was mad at that fact and just other shit i keep inside. they all roll together like a snowball; im used to it anyway. i told miss raunchy why and you know what she tells me? it'll help me with tolerating others. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL?! im pretty sure when i go to college, the foolishness, embarassment, and annoyance will be different. perhaps more sophisticated even.
i talked to lexy about it monday because shes mature about it. we went by the promenade and talked it out. it felt good for someone to understand and just listen to me. she was sorry and didnt realize it would bother me this much. yep it definitely did. i also told her about other stuff on my mind. she half-agreed but understood nonetheless. that's all i needed.
there will be no next time. food and two morons do not go together. NEVERRRRRRR! i am territorial about my food just as much as they are. i will not tolerate this. they can go fuck themselves before they take my food.
on a lighter note.. i plan on learning After School AH and DIVA. and if i cant find a decent video of JYP songs, that too HEHEHEHEH
saturday was a beach day at rockaway beach. that was fun and all. cold ass water. sand felt cool and warm; just right. tanned legs and arms. buried people in sand.
what annoyed me was dinner. i didnt want to go but my friend, Miss Raunchy was like just come! im like ok. maybe i wont be so annoyed if i go with them. we got to the resteraunt. i went to the bathroom before we got seated. for some reason, i got this vibe that my seat would not be there. i love my friends and trust them but this vibe wouldnt go away. i was right. my seat was NOT there. the only seat left were next to the two morons i CANNOT eat with. every meal is their first meal. thats means they ALWAYS eat like their mommas NEVER feed them. by the time the food gets to me, i dont get any. then they wanna say, why is my plate empty? shit.... whatever. i was mad at that fact and just other shit i keep inside. they all roll together like a snowball; im used to it anyway. i told miss raunchy why and you know what she tells me? it'll help me with tolerating others. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL?! im pretty sure when i go to college, the foolishness, embarassment, and annoyance will be different. perhaps more sophisticated even.
i talked to lexy about it monday because shes mature about it. we went by the promenade and talked it out. it felt good for someone to understand and just listen to me. she was sorry and didnt realize it would bother me this much. yep it definitely did. i also told her about other stuff on my mind. she half-agreed but understood nonetheless. that's all i needed.
there will be no next time. food and two morons do not go together. NEVERRRRRRR! i am territorial about my food just as much as they are. i will not tolerate this. they can go fuck themselves before they take my food.
on a lighter note.. i plan on learning After School AH and DIVA. and if i cant find a decent video of JYP songs, that too HEHEHEHEH