Get ready for work!!!
Well once he is gone there wont be anything tying me here. I don't get why I was bond, or what I was waiting for. I do... but I knew it'd never happen. I screwed up and I'm still paying. I still just feel bad, I just want to say I'm sorry and him to say it's fine now so I can move on with a clean conscience. But he can't do that. For some reason it's always been ok with him if I was bothered and uncomfortable. Like that night, I'm sorry I didn't know. And excuse me if I'm not exactly alert at 3:00am after drinking a couple. See when he was there I felt like he always would be... or at least for a couple years. The fact is i still feel as though he's there right? But just there to ruin anything I even create. He's the to demolish every single second I ever spent on just trying to forget and move myself forward. But I have moved forward? No, that's not a question for you... Look, all I ask for is for him to allow an apology. Of course I don't get why I'm the one cowaring to him. It's because of him I'm miserable, or at least when I'm around certain people I now can't just relax. It's hard for me to be serious about anything anymore, but I'm never joking either. I'm sure I was like this before. But this is getting worse. I feel like I got my ass kicked. No, I feel worse. I would have rather him kick my ass, then I would have had a good excuse to mase him. Not that I want to hurt him, but I'm tired of being blamed.
Alright that had to be annoying, I can't believe you read that.
Alright that had to be annoying, I can't believe you read that.