When He was on the Cross- I was on His mind...
Man alive... I have so much to say... but I'm at a loss of words (which is completly uncharacteristic of me)....
Last weekend was undescribable... and though there were a few moments that sucked- it was a life changing weekend... i honestly can't even think of a word to describe it- "amazing" doesn't even cut it...Haha... ur all going to think i have too much time on my hands- but i found this poem on line (could be a song) and even though it's SOO elementary it says a lot...
WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS:
I’M NOT ON AN EGO TRIP
I’M NOTHING ON MY OWN
I MADE MISTAKES I OFTEN SLIP
JUST COMMON FLESH AND BONES
BUT I’LL PROVE SOMEDAY JUST WHY I SAY
I’M OF A SPECIAL KIND
FOR WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
THE LOOK OF LOVE WAS ON HIS FACE
THORNES WERE ON HIS HEAD
BLOOD WAS ON HIS SCARLET ROBE
STAINED A CRIMSON RED
THOUGH HIS EYES WERE ON THE CROWD THAT DAY
HE LOOKED AHEAD IN TIME
FOR WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
HE KNEW ME YET HE LOVED ME
HE WHOSE GLORY MAKES
THE HEAVENS SHINE
SO UNWORTHY OF SUCH MERCY
YET WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
YET WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
Maybe the word that could describe this weekend is "love"... i feel SOoo unbelievabley "loved"... it's weird- lol.... man- i wish that everyone was experiencing what i am...
You know what you guys- i need u guys to pray for me. I feel like God is starting to do some work on me... well not "STARTING"... but just that some big changes are going to be happening... and I desperatly want to let Him just take full control of my life... easier said then done- i realize this... it's as if the old wounds of the things of my past have now turned to scars- and even though they will always be there- they have healed (lol, a little analagy for ruth haha)... and i feel like now that i have forgiven people for things that have happened, that God can start His work... lol how do i explain that?- it's like ok...this is how i see myself:
...imagine planting a seed- and after a number of years this plant starts growing... it had been trampled on number of times, at one point all it's leaves were cut off... no one thought it could ever live a normal life... but it just wouldn't die because the seed was planted so firmly... however, there was something stoping the roots from growing longer- from getting deeper... there was a rock in the way (lets call this rock "unforgivness," "pride", "pain/hurt", "worthlessness", "ugly", "tainted", "hopeless" ect.)... now you see, most would think that this plant is doombed- but WAIT! there's the gardener- who just loves this plant soo much- and has been watching out for it... one day he bends down and digs up the rock... he throws it away and fills the whole in the ground with fertalizer...the rock is gone... and the roots can now keep on going deeper- securing this strong 'foundation'... and there is the TINYEST hint of a blossom forming... something beautiful is starting to happen...
Some of you reading this know what i'm talking about specifically... others don't (either cuz i don't know you, or i'm scared of you knowing)... but i feel like this huge burden in my life has finally been lifted completely... it's been soo many years... but it's like- this weekend something was confirmed in my life- and that was my Beauty... haha, not talking vanity here- but just beauty that God made that no one can take away- beauty that can never be "tainted" enought that HE won't still find value in me... TAHTS an amazing feeling... He loves me- and you, unconditionally... He finds us all to be beautiful- NO MATTER what has happened to us...
Frig- i'm soo in love... I hope that all who read this will one day understand what i'm talking about... I hope you know how much God loves you... like i mean REALLY loves you...
"Lord you are good and your mercy endures forever"
Last weekend was undescribable... and though there were a few moments that sucked- it was a life changing weekend... i honestly can't even think of a word to describe it- "amazing" doesn't even cut it...Haha... ur all going to think i have too much time on my hands- but i found this poem on line (could be a song) and even though it's SOO elementary it says a lot...
WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS:
I’M NOT ON AN EGO TRIP
I’M NOTHING ON MY OWN
I MADE MISTAKES I OFTEN SLIP
JUST COMMON FLESH AND BONES
BUT I’LL PROVE SOMEDAY JUST WHY I SAY
I’M OF A SPECIAL KIND
FOR WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
THE LOOK OF LOVE WAS ON HIS FACE
THORNES WERE ON HIS HEAD
BLOOD WAS ON HIS SCARLET ROBE
STAINED A CRIMSON RED
THOUGH HIS EYES WERE ON THE CROWD THAT DAY
HE LOOKED AHEAD IN TIME
FOR WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
HE KNEW ME YET HE LOVED ME
HE WHOSE GLORY MAKES
THE HEAVENS SHINE
SO UNWORTHY OF SUCH MERCY
YET WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
YET WHEN HE WAS ON THE CROSS
I WAS ON HIS MIND.
Maybe the word that could describe this weekend is "love"... i feel SOoo unbelievabley "loved"... it's weird- lol.... man- i wish that everyone was experiencing what i am...
You know what you guys- i need u guys to pray for me. I feel like God is starting to do some work on me... well not "STARTING"... but just that some big changes are going to be happening... and I desperatly want to let Him just take full control of my life... easier said then done- i realize this... it's as if the old wounds of the things of my past have now turned to scars- and even though they will always be there- they have healed (lol, a little analagy for ruth haha)... and i feel like now that i have forgiven people for things that have happened, that God can start His work... lol how do i explain that?- it's like ok...this is how i see myself:
...imagine planting a seed- and after a number of years this plant starts growing... it had been trampled on number of times, at one point all it's leaves were cut off... no one thought it could ever live a normal life... but it just wouldn't die because the seed was planted so firmly... however, there was something stoping the roots from growing longer- from getting deeper... there was a rock in the way (lets call this rock "unforgivness," "pride", "pain/hurt", "worthlessness", "ugly", "tainted", "hopeless" ect.)... now you see, most would think that this plant is doombed- but WAIT! there's the gardener- who just loves this plant soo much- and has been watching out for it... one day he bends down and digs up the rock... he throws it away and fills the whole in the ground with fertalizer...the rock is gone... and the roots can now keep on going deeper- securing this strong 'foundation'... and there is the TINYEST hint of a blossom forming... something beautiful is starting to happen...
Some of you reading this know what i'm talking about specifically... others don't (either cuz i don't know you, or i'm scared of you knowing)... but i feel like this huge burden in my life has finally been lifted completely... it's been soo many years... but it's like- this weekend something was confirmed in my life- and that was my Beauty... haha, not talking vanity here- but just beauty that God made that no one can take away- beauty that can never be "tainted" enought that HE won't still find value in me... TAHTS an amazing feeling... He loves me- and you, unconditionally... He finds us all to be beautiful- NO MATTER what has happened to us...
Frig- i'm soo in love... I hope that all who read this will one day understand what i'm talking about... I hope you know how much God loves you... like i mean REALLY loves you...
"Lord you are good and your mercy endures forever"