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Dec 12, 2004 13:02


well..lets see whats new in the wonderful world of Jordan...(sike out)

Well last update i forgot to say that i got glasses!=\ i like them i guess..but i dont know! Everyone says i look cute, but i think different!

well..school has been pretty good i guess. nothing to out of the ordinary.

Well..my weekend was oretty boring, Friday i went to the dance, it was Gay, so i dont think i am going to be going to any other dances this year. Saturday i did nothing, i was home alone just about all day, and i was grounded because me and my mom got in an arguement. Today, nothing really is happpening today, we are going to decorate our christmas tree..whooohoo! =\

So...lets see...Lately i have been having the wierdest dreams. I dont know if they are a sign or what, but some of them are good, and some of them are really sad. But i cant stop what im dreaming.  It just sometimes my dreams feel so real, that when i wake up, it feels like they actually happened. In some of my dremas i just wish i would never wake up. They make me so happy,  and then when i wake up, i go back to reality and realize thats its just a dream. Dreams can do crazy things to you. They can make you fall in love, they can make you sad, or make you happy, they can even hurt you. Dreams are weird, everyone has them. But not everyone knows what to do with them. I love to have dreams, i think that they are a part of my life that i havent lived yet. Others jsut think they are stories your mind makes up. But eitehr way you think about it, dreams are apart of your life. It just all depends on the way you look at it!

Ugh..and right now..i just dont know what to think. Everything is just so overwhelming, i just wish  sometimes i could just be a princess in country far far away, or teddy bear having tea! i want to be somewhere that i know that i wont have to deal or go through with some of the things i am right now.  But we cant do that. Life does get tough, and when it does, you have to figure it out, when your life is at the worst it can get, then everything will start getting better because it cant go anywhere but up. I feel really complainy today, and i dont care. If you guys dont want to read this or whatever i dont care. this is how i feel and im going to get it out.

So..lately, i have been feeling lonely. Everything i look at, everyone i look at, it all makes me think of someone. And i miss him so much. I just wanna be with him. I love him so much too. But like right now, it just seems like, everythings going wrong. Maybe its just me that things that. But i just dont know! I love him so much, and i know i always will. But right now, i just have a feeling that soonier or later i might get hurt, and i dont think im the only one that thinks that!

Well this is all for now..i have pictures of me in my glasses if you want to see them..there not all that great..but owell!

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hope you enjoy them

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