Nov 12, 2004 04:42
Okay. So I lied when I said that I'd write the next day...whats new? Writing can be an inconvenience in my life if only due to laziness. I have soooo much on my mind right now but biggest of all is abortion. But let me start at the beginning.....
Alright so I had an appointment to get an ultrasound on Tuesday, the 9th of November. BIG DEAL for me!!! I was soo excited. It was determined that I was 14 weeks and 2 days along. I don't think I'll ever forget that baby on the screen, MY baby!! The doc put some lukewarm gel on my tummy then put the roller to my abdomen. Now, previously I had almost doubted there WAS a baby even though I had the worst "morning" sickness and fatigue...mainly because I couldn't FEEL the baby. Okay so anyway. Allen was right beside me watching as our baby was obviously hyped up on something (possibly my coke drinking caught up with him/her??) The baby wouldn't stop moving!!! It was soo funny and adorable and so many undescribable (sp?) emotions! I was shown the baby's face and how his/her feet were crossed and the heartbeat and how he/she waved tiny little fists..... I seriously wanted to cry!! Good tears of course!!
I found out that my baby is almost 4 inches long and 3 whole ounces!!! Already right as I type my heart is racing and my fingers are tapping so fast on this keyboard and my anger is getting to a level almost comparable to an angry tiger. My baby puts such joy in me, so its not my baby that angers me...Here it goes.
Abortions in the United States can continue PAST 14 weeks!!! I've always cared about the fight to rid abortion from the veins of this already poisoned society, but now my concern and frankly my anger has peaked! It's just become so real to me... ITS LEGAL FOR ME TO MURDER MY OWN CHILD!!! Doesn't that sound vicious? But women do it EVERY DAY and there are women who spoke out for Kerry SPECIFICALLY to keep abortion legal!!! To keep MURDER legal. To keep it legal to kill our OWN CHILDREN!!! They say that "it" is just a bunch of cells in women, not babies. They say that "it" is part of the woman, not a baby. But I have to say..it wasn't ME moving in my stomach, it was my baby! My baby had the hiccups, not me. I have my own heartbeat, the one inside me wasn't mine..it was my baby's. HOW ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID??? HOW CAN AMERICANS BE SO IGNORANT?
Literally it makes me cry and literally I want to personally rip apart the abortion doctors limb by limb. They TEAR our babies apart with NO anesthetics! Abortions are completely legal until about the 20th week, or later if the mother is "endangered". They insert a sharp hook-like instrument and basically cut off the limbs of these innocent humans..Then theres the partial birth abortion (Bush got it outlawed, thank God!) The baby (that could easily survive more times than not outside the womb b/c he's so far along) is basically breech birthed with everything out but the head. Then the doctor shoves scissors up the nape of the neck and opens to make a hole for a tube to SUCK OUT THE BRAIN!....Its so gruesome it would make most sick AND IT SHOULD!! If someone took a newborn and cut them up the country would be outraged, but it happens everyday and America rallies and marches and squeaks that wheel so they can keep doing it because they say that women would die in back alleys if it weren't legal. Know what I say? WHO CARES?? It would be their CHOICE to die in the back alleys. It is NOT THAT HARD TO FIGURE OUT HOW BABIES ARE MADE. C'mon people!!
So many people wonder why 9/11 happened. I don't pretend to know, but I do know that it was a wake-up call that we promptly discarded. I wonder how much longer this country can last. How much longer God until you destroy us? We've destroyed EVERY commandment...We've made a mockery of Your word and You God, even our Creator. Are we still here because there are still the few real righteous? And what about when they're gone? Will we be destroyed just like S & G? God be with us...