mistletoe is a parasite!!
if you don't believe my subject line, then look it up. it feeds off trees eventually killing them! isn't it odd that we care so much for this lifesucking herb and then claim that we can create romance under it? says alot about love doesn't it!
so yes, i am alive and i apologize for never writing. i have made a new year's resolution that atleast two hours of my week should be devoted to personal email and this journal. honestly, it seems that i have avoided it because nothing much has happened but thinking about it, so much has.
alright, let's start with work. lots of work, and part of the reason i never write email is because my only access to the internet is there and everyone uses the computer i use. harsh huh? i don't want my boss to constantly check on my work like that. other than that, i'm enjoying it a bit more, but nervous at the same time. i mean, in a month i will have my first lab meeting which involves me reiterating all the work i've done in the past six months but coherently!! urgh...nothing is working and now i have to do this!! the guy i work with, one i'm not particularly great friends with, didn't even realize that i have this. what i am jealous of is all those other people who's postdoccs have helped them with their meetings. mine, nothing!! frustration there. (btw, that will be a common word for the next part of my life) i've become better friends with everyone at work and love them dearly. and i think they think of me as cool too. fooled them haven't i!! hehe. each is weird in their own way though. i mean, i love mercy and mickey b/c the three of us cause a ruckus together. kelly is sweet but the gossip in my life. and frank, well, he's frank. i mean, he's just the guy that i love hanging out with and can be a friend when i most need one.
okay, now, let's move to the persian prince. yes, i moved forward on that one...i mean, we talked alot in august at all those happy hours. in september we went out a bit into october. yes, we've kissed and done a bit more. i actually believed that we could be something more and felt he could feel the same way about me but that was not true i realized quickly. he never called and talking to him was all that ever happened. frustration. best word. i mean, he'd visit my bay once in a while, at moments that i was sure that i'd stopped liking him. why does he affect me so, i still haven't figured that out yet? i mean, he's not exactly the cutest thing. everyone is confused as to why i like him because they think i can do better but i love the nerdy, arrogant manner he carries himself with. plus, he has big puppydog brown eyes that make me feel that when he is talking to me, that he is only focused on me. urgh!! and then at the holiday party i made such a fool of myself. i drank a bit too my merlot, my kryptonite (along with the oreo) and got a bit crazy. i drank like a freshman i admit and felt horrible. rumors state that i was making out on every floor with him and somewhere in all this, he left. i don't remember why or on what note but i called him the next day to find out. that was a week ago and no telephone call. obviously, i did/said something stupid. lott and nick who visited are upset that i care about him at all... i guess another new years resolution should be to find someone new and not care for this one anymore at all. we can be friends.
life in philadelphia is one i was meant for. i've made a little home for myself which i love and now need to concentrate on the future. mcats, lott and sarah are on my case about taking them in april. they said that i've been talking for two years about this and if i want to be a doctor, i've got to do this now! i agree and want to make sure that i give that proper time. being that immunology went well and now i have no one taking up my time, then i can study more! hehe. plus, no more partying like abramson. merlot is best appreciated in small quantities. especially for a girl who is as small as me.
hmm, new years. i may blow it in like a rockstar or end up watching bridget jones with a cup of tea and a box of tissues wondering if i'm going to be miserable and die alone eaten by dogs. ah, don't know. ;)
alright, that's it. sorry for the woe is me part of this entry. all of you can make sure that i don't do it again.
so resolutions:
1) study for mcats just like you party. hard!
2) return to my nerdiness (discover more books)
3) be a better scientist! pu.1 is my fav. transcription factor but i have to learn why!
4) not date anyone on my floor, despite my crazy lab who is setting me up with people anyway.
5) avoid persian people working on the 4th floor of brb 2/3
6) be a better friend, learning to communicate and listen more.
7) gain muscle without eating meat...
8) avoid taking too many evil chemicals into my body, in excess... again, merlot is best in small quantities.
9) spend less money...that's enough said.
i most likely will think of more.
so yes, i am alive and i apologize for never writing. i have made a new year's resolution that atleast two hours of my week should be devoted to personal email and this journal. honestly, it seems that i have avoided it because nothing much has happened but thinking about it, so much has.
alright, let's start with work. lots of work, and part of the reason i never write email is because my only access to the internet is there and everyone uses the computer i use. harsh huh? i don't want my boss to constantly check on my work like that. other than that, i'm enjoying it a bit more, but nervous at the same time. i mean, in a month i will have my first lab meeting which involves me reiterating all the work i've done in the past six months but coherently!! urgh...nothing is working and now i have to do this!! the guy i work with, one i'm not particularly great friends with, didn't even realize that i have this. what i am jealous of is all those other people who's postdoccs have helped them with their meetings. mine, nothing!! frustration there. (btw, that will be a common word for the next part of my life) i've become better friends with everyone at work and love them dearly. and i think they think of me as cool too. fooled them haven't i!! hehe. each is weird in their own way though. i mean, i love mercy and mickey b/c the three of us cause a ruckus together. kelly is sweet but the gossip in my life. and frank, well, he's frank. i mean, he's just the guy that i love hanging out with and can be a friend when i most need one.
okay, now, let's move to the persian prince. yes, i moved forward on that one...i mean, we talked alot in august at all those happy hours. in september we went out a bit into october. yes, we've kissed and done a bit more. i actually believed that we could be something more and felt he could feel the same way about me but that was not true i realized quickly. he never called and talking to him was all that ever happened. frustration. best word. i mean, he'd visit my bay once in a while, at moments that i was sure that i'd stopped liking him. why does he affect me so, i still haven't figured that out yet? i mean, he's not exactly the cutest thing. everyone is confused as to why i like him because they think i can do better but i love the nerdy, arrogant manner he carries himself with. plus, he has big puppydog brown eyes that make me feel that when he is talking to me, that he is only focused on me. urgh!! and then at the holiday party i made such a fool of myself. i drank a bit too my merlot, my kryptonite (along with the oreo) and got a bit crazy. i drank like a freshman i admit and felt horrible. rumors state that i was making out on every floor with him and somewhere in all this, he left. i don't remember why or on what note but i called him the next day to find out. that was a week ago and no telephone call. obviously, i did/said something stupid. lott and nick who visited are upset that i care about him at all... i guess another new years resolution should be to find someone new and not care for this one anymore at all. we can be friends.
life in philadelphia is one i was meant for. i've made a little home for myself which i love and now need to concentrate on the future. mcats, lott and sarah are on my case about taking them in april. they said that i've been talking for two years about this and if i want to be a doctor, i've got to do this now! i agree and want to make sure that i give that proper time. being that immunology went well and now i have no one taking up my time, then i can study more! hehe. plus, no more partying like abramson. merlot is best appreciated in small quantities. especially for a girl who is as small as me.
hmm, new years. i may blow it in like a rockstar or end up watching bridget jones with a cup of tea and a box of tissues wondering if i'm going to be miserable and die alone eaten by dogs. ah, don't know. ;)
alright, that's it. sorry for the woe is me part of this entry. all of you can make sure that i don't do it again.
so resolutions:
1) study for mcats just like you party. hard!
2) return to my nerdiness (discover more books)
3) be a better scientist! pu.1 is my fav. transcription factor but i have to learn why!
4) not date anyone on my floor, despite my crazy lab who is setting me up with people anyway.
5) avoid persian people working on the 4th floor of brb 2/3
6) be a better friend, learning to communicate and listen more.
7) gain muscle without eating meat...
8) avoid taking too many evil chemicals into my body, in excess... again, merlot is best in small quantities.
9) spend less money...that's enough said.
i most likely will think of more.