long night

[lotusflower33]

last night was a trip...the bonfire was huge...there were sooo many people there, and some of us decided to pitch some tents (i stayed there all night). at around midnight we started up w/the huge bottle of vodka and stuff that Brandon had brought w/him (like some Arbor Mist hahaha) and such...i got soooooo wasted off of a screw driver that i made in an orange juice container and some awesome hard cider that Pete had. it got to the point where i was totally convinced that i was going to literally fall off the end of the earth if i stood up at all...pretty hardcore for me considering the fact that i dont drink very often. im pretty sure i got pretty sick once...ick...but Brandon and Eric were really nice about getting me into a tent to lie down and sober up my head a bit- at least to not be so f-ing dizzy...Brandon got pretty fucked up, too, so we just fell asleep together in the big tent trying to keep ourselves warm...but it was sooo soooo cold. in another life, i swear i was completely in love with him. from what i hear, the party got a lot crazier while i was unconscious...supposedly there was actually a time in there where i opennly hated the all of the world at once (probably b/c the people that were tripping on shrooms were trying to mess w/my head so much) and was yelling "fuck you" at everyone...doesnt sounds like me, does it? i woke up inside Brian's house on his bed again this morning w/Brandon while Pete(i hope he's doing ok now), Bonne, Ali, and Tyler were all crashed on the floor (and i didnt have much of a hangover...pure luck). it was warm...sooo warm. ali left sometime before 11am and so did tyler. so we slept like that until about noon and then Brandon, Bonne, and I talked some "drug" philosophy (as i like to call it)for awhile. i love those guys. i didn't like leaving...i couldve stayed there the rest of the day just listenning to Tom, Brandon, and Bonne talk and drawing in the sun.
i made it home in one piece and with very little of anything left in my system...my hands still wont stop shaking tho...thats annoying. i think i'm going to go see if i can get any real sleep...alone. *tear* lol. you know, i really do miss Brandon...
and then i owe Bonne a few drawings in his "party notebook" so maybe i'll sit outside in the sun and work on that, too. fun stuff.
much love to you all....pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaase get out and enjoy the day, it's gorgeous and sunny.