night
it kind of feels like time is at a complete standstill. spring break hasn't felt like any kind of break since it started...and the problems just keep pouring on. i got out of my house for basically the first time today. i made david a cd and just didnt go home after i dropped it off at his house. i ended up over at joe's...which, for a few reasons, was a really odd few hours as well...and we watched Gladiator...zzzzzzzzz(i almost fell asleep). its almost 1:30 in the morning now and i still can't sleep. fuck...my parents voices keep bouncing around in my head. i wish theyd just go ahead and get a fucking divorce already before they tear eachothers heads off...or mine for that matter.
im currently in a huge toss up about wtf is going on, otherwise. it feels realy dangerous to care so much about someone w/o being able to read them at all...i hate this feeling. maybe this time it'll work out..maybe sometime. after 4 fuck-ups it could happen, but maybe not. you know what- no, i really don't think this is going to play out the way i want it to...not now. fuck, i'm just so tired and i really want to go for a walk...it's nice enough outside. maybe sleep will happen by accident sooner or later. goodnight.
im currently in a huge toss up about wtf is going on, otherwise. it feels realy dangerous to care so much about someone w/o being able to read them at all...i hate this feeling. maybe this time it'll work out..maybe sometime. after 4 fuck-ups it could happen, but maybe not. you know what- no, i really don't think this is going to play out the way i want it to...not now. fuck, i'm just so tired and i really want to go for a walk...it's nice enough outside. maybe sleep will happen by accident sooner or later. goodnight.