One week left...
I am so ready for spring break and Orlando. March promises to be an interesting month to say the least. How do I feel right now? Well, other than exhausted, I really don't know how to feel. I really wish I could divulge everything in my mind, but unfortunately this is a public journal and I don't want to risk hurting, offending, or alienating anyone.
Suffice to say, sometimes I even confuse myself. I'm not a chameleon, but in retrospect I've noticed that sometimes I do things that many would expect to be completely out of character for me. A lot of times people don't understand, but there are times when understanding is no longer relevant. Our minds get flooded with so many contradicting thoughts, feelings, emotions, and impulses that we really don't know what to do. And if we try to go down one path, we may end up regretting it or wishing we had gone down another. It's during times like these that I just say "to hell with everything" and go with my gut instinct. I'm tired of creating complex scenarios for myself, and I'm tired of driving myself insane by getting caught up in people's dramatic conundrums. I feel like one of the victims in the Saw movies caught in one of Jigsaw's maniacal contraptions. So I've reached the point where I'm not going to question the decisions that I make. I'm going to do what I feel is logical, and I'm not going to waste my time doing double takes and taking steps backwards. I know that my destiny doesn't lie here anyway, so there's no way to go except forward.
And forward is where I want to place my focus. Onward to spring break, Ring of Honor shows, Universal Studios, and Necropolis in Orlando!
Suffice to say, sometimes I even confuse myself. I'm not a chameleon, but in retrospect I've noticed that sometimes I do things that many would expect to be completely out of character for me. A lot of times people don't understand, but there are times when understanding is no longer relevant. Our minds get flooded with so many contradicting thoughts, feelings, emotions, and impulses that we really don't know what to do. And if we try to go down one path, we may end up regretting it or wishing we had gone down another. It's during times like these that I just say "to hell with everything" and go with my gut instinct. I'm tired of creating complex scenarios for myself, and I'm tired of driving myself insane by getting caught up in people's dramatic conundrums. I feel like one of the victims in the Saw movies caught in one of Jigsaw's maniacal contraptions. So I've reached the point where I'm not going to question the decisions that I make. I'm going to do what I feel is logical, and I'm not going to waste my time doing double takes and taking steps backwards. I know that my destiny doesn't lie here anyway, so there's no way to go except forward.
And forward is where I want to place my focus. Onward to spring break, Ring of Honor shows, Universal Studios, and Necropolis in Orlando!