Yes..... I am actually alive....
So, how long has it been since I posted an entry on this god forsaken thing? Weeks maybe? Definitely not since the Emory Rejection in June. I'm trying not to think about that.
I've been writing in my personal journal a lot more lately, so by the time I think about writing in this, I've already jotted all my thoughts down and I don't feel like I have anything more to write. I've almost been toying with deleting this thing. Writing in my paper journal allows me to be a lot more personal, which is something I've been dearly enjoying. I don't have to censor anything at all. Not that there's a lot to censor in my life. Life has been good, and that's usually what I've found myself writing about. I think I only had one depressing entry in the beginning of June. That's been it for a while, and even that one was a rare one. I've just been a lot happier lately. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I've been running more and forcing myself to spend more time in the sun. Well, "forcing myself" isn't exactly the way I'd put it. It's more like I've been refusing to stay inside. The weather's been too beautiful to do so anyway. Now I'm working on a lovely tan and I look all freckled and sun kissed. My hair is even turning a sort of sandy blonde. I look good in it. I think it makes me look healthier all around. My face doesn't look so discolored all the time. I think my skin may have even started glowing - and not in the way that pasty white skin does. Not that weird porcelain glow.
My skin still refuses to clear up. I'm starting yet another BC tomorrow. If that doesn't work, and I'm starting to think that it won't, then I have no idea what we'll do next. I have a dermatologist appointment coming up in early August. My regular doctor is talking acutane.
Anyway, works done! FREEDOM!
I've been writing in my personal journal a lot more lately, so by the time I think about writing in this, I've already jotted all my thoughts down and I don't feel like I have anything more to write. I've almost been toying with deleting this thing. Writing in my paper journal allows me to be a lot more personal, which is something I've been dearly enjoying. I don't have to censor anything at all. Not that there's a lot to censor in my life. Life has been good, and that's usually what I've found myself writing about. I think I only had one depressing entry in the beginning of June. That's been it for a while, and even that one was a rare one. I've just been a lot happier lately. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I've been running more and forcing myself to spend more time in the sun. Well, "forcing myself" isn't exactly the way I'd put it. It's more like I've been refusing to stay inside. The weather's been too beautiful to do so anyway. Now I'm working on a lovely tan and I look all freckled and sun kissed. My hair is even turning a sort of sandy blonde. I look good in it. I think it makes me look healthier all around. My face doesn't look so discolored all the time. I think my skin may have even started glowing - and not in the way that pasty white skin does. Not that weird porcelain glow.
My skin still refuses to clear up. I'm starting yet another BC tomorrow. If that doesn't work, and I'm starting to think that it won't, then I have no idea what we'll do next. I have a dermatologist appointment coming up in early August. My regular doctor is talking acutane.
Anyway, works done! FREEDOM!