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Things have been settling in since I got back from NAFEW. I came home for a day before going to see Daniel in Terrace for a day- we hadn't seen each other in two weeks and it was good to spend even that little bit of time with him as he was flying to Kelowna to visit a friend who was having some problems. I arrived around 3 and dropped him off at the airport at 2:45 the next day. Still, it was worth it.
I found out last night that a friend of mine wasn't able to come up for a visit as was previously planned, and I felt myself unexpectedly upset. I had gotten ahead of myself and planned out all these fun things that I thought we'd both enjoy, it was preemptive and I even knew it at the time. But the thought of having someone around to do things with was just too enjoyable... I have to stop myself doing this, for in the future there are many tentative visits coming up. And I just couldn't stand the disappointment of investing myself in each and every one.
I went to bed early last night, kinda bummed about the un-visit and not hearing from Daniel while he was down in Kelowna. I thought he was coming back Thursday or Friday, so I was hoping for an email from him. No email... So I went to bed and lay there for a little while, when suddenly someone banged on the door. I bolted upright and ran to the door, peering out the peephole and saw the vague shape of someone familiar on my dark doorstep- Daniel! I opened the door and had a big hug, and it was a great surprise. Not only his arrival, but when I asked who drove him there he said himself... And I looked past him to the driveway, and saw a shiny silver 2007 Ford Ranger there! He had gone to Kelowna to buy the truck and then drove back and surprised me with it!!! I was very pleased, as I love surprises. It's a beautiful vehicle, it has modifications for 4-bying and is exactly as he wants (except the stereo). I could tell he was very pleased to have it, he's felt pretty crippled since his car broke down and has been eying this model for months. Although we didn't have much time together, it was enough to chat before bed, fall asleep together, and have a very rushed morning! I had a really hard time leaving in the morning, Daniel hasn't been here in Smithers since my parents were here.
Work was okay today, aside from me being late... Erin came with us, so Ben and I taught her the methods for the old-growth sampling. It wasn't the most productive day, but we have lots of plots marked to do tomorrow. It was all fine until we all piled back into the truck and headed back to Smithers. I sat in the back seat with stinging eyes and a sick feeling in my stomach, knowing that I was coming back to an empty apartment. Erin and Ben were happily chatting about climbing and local routes, but all I could think of was the single pair of shoes on the shoe mat. After some shopping, I came home and pulled into the carport. I saw that the truck was gone, and I couldn't help myself. I thought about one more night on my own and cried as I put my groceries away.
This long-distance thing is not being easy on me.
I found out last night that a friend of mine wasn't able to come up for a visit as was previously planned, and I felt myself unexpectedly upset. I had gotten ahead of myself and planned out all these fun things that I thought we'd both enjoy, it was preemptive and I even knew it at the time. But the thought of having someone around to do things with was just too enjoyable... I have to stop myself doing this, for in the future there are many tentative visits coming up. And I just couldn't stand the disappointment of investing myself in each and every one.
I went to bed early last night, kinda bummed about the un-visit and not hearing from Daniel while he was down in Kelowna. I thought he was coming back Thursday or Friday, so I was hoping for an email from him. No email... So I went to bed and lay there for a little while, when suddenly someone banged on the door. I bolted upright and ran to the door, peering out the peephole and saw the vague shape of someone familiar on my dark doorstep- Daniel! I opened the door and had a big hug, and it was a great surprise. Not only his arrival, but when I asked who drove him there he said himself... And I looked past him to the driveway, and saw a shiny silver 2007 Ford Ranger there! He had gone to Kelowna to buy the truck and then drove back and surprised me with it!!! I was very pleased, as I love surprises. It's a beautiful vehicle, it has modifications for 4-bying and is exactly as he wants (except the stereo). I could tell he was very pleased to have it, he's felt pretty crippled since his car broke down and has been eying this model for months. Although we didn't have much time together, it was enough to chat before bed, fall asleep together, and have a very rushed morning! I had a really hard time leaving in the morning, Daniel hasn't been here in Smithers since my parents were here.
Work was okay today, aside from me being late... Erin came with us, so Ben and I taught her the methods for the old-growth sampling. It wasn't the most productive day, but we have lots of plots marked to do tomorrow. It was all fine until we all piled back into the truck and headed back to Smithers. I sat in the back seat with stinging eyes and a sick feeling in my stomach, knowing that I was coming back to an empty apartment. Erin and Ben were happily chatting about climbing and local routes, but all I could think of was the single pair of shoes on the shoe mat. After some shopping, I came home and pulled into the carport. I saw that the truck was gone, and I couldn't help myself. I thought about one more night on my own and cried as I put my groceries away.
This long-distance thing is not being easy on me.