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Yesterday was El Dia Del Amor... So fuckin' what? I'm sure you can all tell that it wasn't the "Valentine's Day of my dreams." It wasn't a bad day, however.
I'm currently still out of a car. I did get the head gasket fixed. Now it is a totally different problem altogether. Perhaps I will mention it later. Right now it makes me too upset to talk about.
I just got online a few minutes ago after being MIA for a week or two. I received an offline from Jay. I had fallen out of touch with him for quite sometime. I called him not too long ago and was supposed to call back but never got the chance. Or maybe I just forgot. I don't know. Whatever the reason the second call never took place.
I didn't go to Mobile. The offer still stands though. Maybe the message from Jay was a sign. He is from Mobile. Who knows?
I called Nick earlier to say, "Hi," and to see how he was doing. He was a total ass. All he cares about is getting the rest of his damn money. He accused me of blowing it all on drugs because I didn't have anything extra to spare this paycheck, on top of last. He knows I am out of a job. With my car and the Discover card payoff, paying off my Dad, my car insurance, not to mention the ticket I have to pay this week for using an "improper turn signal," I had nothing left for myself. He doesn't understand how cornered I am. I try to explain that but he only interprets it as me being self-centered and pining for his pity. That is not the case at all. He said I just am waltzing through life taking no responsibility whatsoever. I told him I had been constantly trying to get a job. He said something hurtful like "the only kinds of jobs I know of are blowjobs." That hurt, but it was actually pretty witty. Case in point, I regret calling. Especially knowing I had been looking forward to talking to him. I don't think of him so often anymore. Still sometimes memories linger on my mind. There are still alot of things I miss. I am taking it all in stride though, especially his hateful attitude, because I understand... sort of. However I also know a person lashing out is really something deeper concerning his own life. So, it is ok. Besides it is a new time now.
I'm currently still out of a car. I did get the head gasket fixed. Now it is a totally different problem altogether. Perhaps I will mention it later. Right now it makes me too upset to talk about.
I just got online a few minutes ago after being MIA for a week or two. I received an offline from Jay. I had fallen out of touch with him for quite sometime. I called him not too long ago and was supposed to call back but never got the chance. Or maybe I just forgot. I don't know. Whatever the reason the second call never took place.
I didn't go to Mobile. The offer still stands though. Maybe the message from Jay was a sign. He is from Mobile. Who knows?
I called Nick earlier to say, "Hi," and to see how he was doing. He was a total ass. All he cares about is getting the rest of his damn money. He accused me of blowing it all on drugs because I didn't have anything extra to spare this paycheck, on top of last. He knows I am out of a job. With my car and the Discover card payoff, paying off my Dad, my car insurance, not to mention the ticket I have to pay this week for using an "improper turn signal," I had nothing left for myself. He doesn't understand how cornered I am. I try to explain that but he only interprets it as me being self-centered and pining for his pity. That is not the case at all. He said I just am waltzing through life taking no responsibility whatsoever. I told him I had been constantly trying to get a job. He said something hurtful like "the only kinds of jobs I know of are blowjobs." That hurt, but it was actually pretty witty. Case in point, I regret calling. Especially knowing I had been looking forward to talking to him. I don't think of him so often anymore. Still sometimes memories linger on my mind. There are still alot of things I miss. I am taking it all in stride though, especially his hateful attitude, because I understand... sort of. However I also know a person lashing out is really something deeper concerning his own life. So, it is ok. Besides it is a new time now.