NEW FIC: Parallel Lines; Bill Adama, Lee Adama. PG

[lotus79]

Title: Parallel Lines
Rating:  PG
Spoilers: Maelstrom and The Son Also Rises
Pairings: Kara/Lee (implied), reference to Kara/Sam, Lee/Dee and Kara/Zak
Wordcount: 2100 
Summary: Parallel lines mirror each other, stretching to infinity but never meeting.  Mutual loss brings some together while tearing others apart.
Warnings: Angst.  It's kinda

Comments

[rayruz]

Oh my god, this was so beautiful and painful at the same time. I started crying twice while I was reading this. Oh my god, so much angst. The section under "It's not a pyramid game, you don't get do-overs" really killed me. But in all the segments their pain was so strong and you really did a great job of bringing that out. Wonderful work. I'm going to go sob wildly in a corner now.

[lotus79]

Aww, glad to hear it resonated! I wasn't sure it would work since I'm not in that angsty place myself anymore.

:)

[daybreak777]

Yay, posted! And what a great title!

This is such a quiet, sad piece. Well-paced and measured. And it gives me what I wanted at the time: to see people grieving Kara. I will just insert this into my personal canon. It fits well there. :-)

Lee didn’t die when he lost her. It only feels that way.
Oh, Lee. :-(

[lotus79]

That line... that line I wrote so very long ago. I had no idea what fic it was going to go into, but then this one came along.

Thanks again for putting the polish on for me! :D

[artemis_90]

This was so wonderfully written, I started to grieve all over again. Everything is canon, yet it seems more visceral and real than canon. The family is grieving and self-destructing and I can just feel their separate yet parallel self-loathing at feeling they somehow 'fail'ed her and their desperate search to hold on to something else to replace their girl.

[lotus79]

Yeah. :( I think part of why this took me so long to get right was that I had to get into that place again - since I know she comes back next ep and everything's fine and dandy poof, what poof?, but from Lee and Bill's perspective, they have lost a loved one forever. I took them through the stages of grief with this. (which is why there are 10 sections--five stages each ;)

[callmeonetrack]

So sad and bittersweet this one. I've never been a big fan of The Son Also Rises (it wasn't enough for me) so I liked seeing more insight into how they grieve for her. I also really liked the rationale that Bill was so hard at/upset with Lee after the raptor bombing because he was afraid his son was trying to fly.

[lotus79]

TSAR always makes me cry like a baby. It felt enough for me, but it might have been coloured by me joining fandom late - I already knew she would be back in the finale. At least I think I did.

I think maybe the understatedness of it really touched me. All this stuff was clearly there beneath the surface, I didn't really need to see more angst. But then, if I'd thought this was going to be the last of Starbuck on the show, I might have felt jipped that it wasn't more indulgent.

Thanks for the feedback! :)

[elzed]

Beautiful and so terribly sad - I think you captured their grief very well (and Adama's grief as a father, and his fears for Lee, perfectly. That bit where he would sell the fleet to keep Lee safe, and welcomes the chance to get him out of his viper made complete sense)

Sigh.

[lotus79]

Yeah, I sometimes feel Adama gets a raw deal in fandom around this time - I really think his grief is equal to Lee's. They're both hurting so much that neither can acknowledge the other's grief though - otherwise it would overwhelm them. Grief can be a selfish thing, and that's OK.

Thanks for reading :)