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Time to bligity blog! It's been awhile and there's been lots to write about, but every time I sit down to do so, I don't. But there are a few things I need to touch on, especially after what happend at church this morning:
For about 3 months now I've been going to The Well. In my search for a church The Well was really only the second one I had visited. I realized that two Sundays at this church was probably not going to be enough for me to know if this was my place, so I decided to plant myself for awhile. The worship atmosphere is great. It's been awhile since I've sat in worship with other believers. I struggle because worship can be so emotionally charged, and I don't want my return to faith to be all emotional. But I'm also having to accept that my emotions are of God and that it's ok to cry. During worship, whether it be at church or at home. I can't help but cry. I think it's probably one of the times I'm most broken before God. I like the children's ministry. Sophia loves Sunday School and I'm so happy that she does too. I want her to grow up with a spiritual side that leads her. The Well is good for that at this point. I like the teaching...for the most part. Sunday's messages have been focusing on the book of John for the past couple of months. Like I said, for the most part I walk away with something to think about as well as a positive challenge. However, this Sunday the message was nothing anywhere near John. Pastor Brad even spoke "live" to us. (Usually it's recorded. There's 5 services and it's alot for one pastor). Anyway, today the message was all about calling out a fellow believer in "sin". It was right on. We just don't cut people off because the go on "sinning". It's important to let them know where we stand, but to love them just the same. And then at the end of the sermon Pastor Brad got to the real point of the sermon. I guess there were two people on leadership that had an "inappropriate" relationship with each other. They're both married and on leadership. Ugh. It was ugly. This is where I struggle. The pastor named them. HE NAMED THEM! Oh my god. I know the girl too. Not closely, but for about 10 years now. I can't believed he named them! He went on to say that he would love them when they came back and yada, yada, yada. If that was me, I would never set foot back in that church again! If anything they should have just stepped down and that would be that. The more I think about it, the more turned off I am about the church. He named them! That's none of our business. People fuck up. That's between them, their spouses, and God. There are a total of 6 services that The Well. That's at least 600 people, if not more, that now know that these two people cheated on their spouses. Oh no. I'm done. While I was sitting there and this was going on, I could see where the pastor was coming from, I just didn't think it was right. This was the Sunday that I was going to go to the information booth to get just a bit more involved. I'm not so sure now. As a matter of fact, I'm positive of it. I'm a bit bummed too. Finding a good church is hard.
After church Sophia and I went to Target to shop for Potty Training supplies. It's that time. She's going to be 3 in a little over a month and soon they aren't going to be making diapers big enough to fit her...unless she's down with the Depends. But we're not going to go there. I'm excited. I let her pick out her potty seat and reward stickers. We're going start on Tuesday...here goes! While at Target I ran into my old roomie Trisha...and her hubby Dan and two kiddos. My, how have times changed! Trisha no longer works her 9 - 5 so we'll be spending alot more time together. She also invited me to her church, which I'll definetly be checking out next Sunday. I miss Trisha! We've grown up, but not necessarily apart. She became a laywer. Like one that works for the DA's office. Cool, huh? But she's my friend that makes me giggle just because and I'm so excited that she's got so much more time on her hands now.
I should just end things now. It's late, I'm tired.
x-posted to myspace/lotus75.com
Time to bligity blog! It's been awhile and there's been lots to write about, but every time I sit down to do so, I don't. But there are a few things I need to touch on, especially after what happend at church this morning:
For about 3 months now I've been going to The Well. In my search for a church The Well was really only the second one I had visited. I realized that two Sundays at this church was probably not going to be enough for me to know if this was my place, so I decided to plant myself for awhile. The worship atmosphere is great. It's been awhile since I've sat in worship with other believers. I struggle because worship can be so emotionally charged, and I don't want my return to faith to be all emotional. But I'm also having to accept that my emotions are of God and that it's ok to cry. During worship, whether it be at church or at home. I can't help but cry. I think it's probably one of the times I'm most broken before God. I like the children's ministry. Sophia loves Sunday School and I'm so happy that she does too. I want her to grow up with a spiritual side that leads her. The Well is good for that at this point. I like the teaching...for the most part. Sunday's messages have been focusing on the book of John for the past couple of months. Like I said, for the most part I walk away with something to think about as well as a positive challenge. However, this Sunday the message was nothing anywhere near John. Pastor Brad even spoke "live" to us. (Usually it's recorded. There's 5 services and it's alot for one pastor). Anyway, today the message was all about calling out a fellow believer in "sin". It was right on. We just don't cut people off because the go on "sinning". It's important to let them know where we stand, but to love them just the same. And then at the end of the sermon Pastor Brad got to the real point of the sermon. I guess there were two people on leadership that had an "inappropriate" relationship with each other. They're both married and on leadership. Ugh. It was ugly. This is where I struggle. The pastor named them. HE NAMED THEM! Oh my god. I know the girl too. Not closely, but for about 10 years now. I can't believed he named them! He went on to say that he would love them when they came back and yada, yada, yada. If that was me, I would never set foot back in that church again! If anything they should have just stepped down and that would be that. The more I think about it, the more turned off I am about the church. He named them! That's none of our business. People fuck up. That's between them, their spouses, and God. There are a total of 6 services that The Well. That's at least 600 people, if not more, that now know that these two people cheated on their spouses. Oh no. I'm done. While I was sitting there and this was going on, I could see where the pastor was coming from, I just didn't think it was right. This was the Sunday that I was going to go to the information booth to get just a bit more involved. I'm not so sure now. As a matter of fact, I'm positive of it. I'm a bit bummed too. Finding a good church is hard.
After church Sophia and I went to Target to shop for Potty Training supplies. It's that time. She's going to be 3 in a little over a month and soon they aren't going to be making diapers big enough to fit her...unless she's down with the Depends. But we're not going to go there. I'm excited. I let her pick out her potty seat and reward stickers. We're going start on Tuesday...here goes! While at Target I ran into my old roomie Trisha...and her hubby Dan and two kiddos. My, how have times changed! Trisha no longer works her 9 - 5 so we'll be spending alot more time together. She also invited me to her church, which I'll definetly be checking out next Sunday. I miss Trisha! We've grown up, but not necessarily apart. She became a laywer. Like one that works for the DA's office. Cool, huh? But she's my friend that makes me giggle just because and I'm so excited that she's got so much more time on her hands now.
I should just end things now. It's late, I'm tired.
x-posted to myspace/lotus75.com