Day 20
Dear Journal
Today I was a seamonkey and John was a sea slug.
I do NOT feel good today. I've had this icky headache that like... it hurts at one point on the right side of my head and then on and around my right eye. I threw up once too. I hate feeling icky. I won't have medicine tomorrow, so I'm really apprehensive but I hope I can get through the day okay. Even if I'm feeling like complete shit, I'm going to try to not complain because I know it hurts John when I'm hurting. I really wish my insurance was taken care of, because I don't want to feel like this. In time, and soon, I hope.
Today was a lazy day, mostly because it was just way too hot to do anything. I know I gotta do some in the yard and John's got to mow, but there was no way it was happening in this heat. I hope tomorrow is cooler. If not, we're gonna go to my mom's anyway so maybe we'll take a swim.
I saw my mama today because she dropped off some fish food for her fishes. They were happy to get food, since they didn't really like the hot dog I tried to feed them.
Me and John watched some Dr. Phil. It was a good episode. I can't stand bad liars. It's like, if you insist on lying, at least try to do it well! This child molester was just too obvious. It made me so annoyed.
I've been following the Iranian protests / revolution a lot today also. Mostly on twitter, it's the most updated source I think. It's so crazy and heartbreaking to see what's going on. I think Obama is doing the right thing by staying out of it, and I was watching that a lot of sociology professors and people agree. Iran needs this. It's just so sad the brutality and loss of life. I heard one woman who was calling from there begging for help and it just broke my heart. I really want this to turn out for the best, and to get there quickly. Who knows where it's going to lead, or how far it will escalate. Neda Soltan has become the matyr for the cause. Causes are much more motivated when they are given a face. I feel strongly for her family. Not given a chance to mourn, and then cast out of their own home. I think about what if that was happening here, and to my family? God, that would be so horrible. I thank God for the blessings that he's given us, and for keeping us safe. I pray for the families there, too. To help them during this very important time in history.
I haven't eaten today because of my stomach ache. John's making curry right now and I'm not hungry but I know I have to eat something so I'm going to force it down. I just hope I don't throw up. :(
The big bill I was worried about was passed due and we got a notice on the door that the "electricity and / or gas" had been shut off. I was so scared we were going to be without electricity, but PGE turns out is just for Gas. Our electricity bill is a lot less so I'm relieved about that. We aren't going to be needing to use the heater any time soon, and we can deal without hot water until we have enough money. Just gonna heat up water for baths on the stove, it won't be that big of a deal, and at least now that pressure is off.
John goes back to work tomorrow. I miss him so much when he's gone. But it's good that he's working, I'm proud of him. We need the money and it's good for him to get out of the house for a while. I'm glad he doesn't have a miserable time there. That'd break my heart if he did, having to see him march off those working days of the week.
John looked up his sister Ashley's boyfriend on myspace today while he was talking to his mom, and turns out he's one of those nasty ass horny little boys who doesn't care that his myspace makes him look like a skeazy pervert. So gross. John was shocked, and couldn't stomach reading those raunchy words off to his mom, so I got on the phone and told her. She was like "!" Yeah, I would never let my daughter near one of those scumbags, nor would I lower myself to the grimey level of dating one. Needless to say, Ashley won't be seeing that kid anymore.
I'm writing in my journal early tonight because I'm already tired and don't want to have to soldier through typing later on. Curry's almost ready.
Hoping the best for tomorrow...
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