Dunno. Just been feeling rather odd lately. It's nothing that you can see really, but everything just feels different to me. Even hanging the four of us yesterday. It's still the same and yet so different. If that makes sense, haha. Maybe it's just that it's June and I have felt sad for a while (sneakers died a year ago last week...) or I don't know, the looming deadline of graduation, but I just feel different. That didn't really explain anything did it, haha
Haha, I have no idea what I want to do with my life so that's right off the bat scary with graduation coming. But also, (being the pessimistic realist that I am) if I am still with chris by then, what the hell happens after that? Honestly, not something I'm constantly thinking about, but every so often the thought pops in. I'm thinking I'll be coming home after school, but then I'm not so sure. What if I go to grad school and it's not in Texas again? And then there's the oh my god, I have to start looking at grad schools to apply to THIS year, but will anyone accept me? Have I done enough? Do I want to go to grad school? Too many things, sigh. I also just don't feel like the same person I used to be. And that kind of makes me sad. I'm still mostly me but some of me is gone, haha.
Oh whoops, thought I responded. Yup, we have a career center, and I'll have to go when I get back to school, haha. I just know that I don't want to write papers all my life so why the hell did I choose these majors? I just want to be a carpenter, how's that. And most definitely true, change has to happen, BUT I just feel weird. Haven't quite figured it out yet. When are you staying over at my house? haha
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