B r o k e n ...
I came to the conclusion last night that I am a dysfunctional, broken person.. All the heartache and turmoil I've gone through in the past I just can't shake off. It's a part of me no matter how much I try to pretend it is not.
Lately, life has been so dreary, cold, and lonely. And the constant churn of school and work is making me completely drained and unhappy. When all this compounds you get a kid that walks with his head down not even able to look up and face society or anyone.
I just want to crawl into a ditch and stay there for a good week and evaluate my entire life and its direction. It's hard to find happiness when your entire past is full of loneliness, disappointment, tragedy, loss, lack of foundation and security, and despair.
There is nothing anyone can do to erase it.. it's me. Sad to say, a broken me.
Edit: Thanks for caring.. I only poured my heart and soul into this post.
Lately, life has been so dreary, cold, and lonely. And the constant churn of school and work is making me completely drained and unhappy. When all this compounds you get a kid that walks with his head down not even able to look up and face society or anyone.
I just want to crawl into a ditch and stay there for a good week and evaluate my entire life and its direction. It's hard to find happiness when your entire past is full of loneliness, disappointment, tragedy, loss, lack of foundation and security, and despair.
There is nothing anyone can do to erase it.. it's me. Sad to say, a broken me.
Edit: Thanks for caring.. I only poured my heart and soul into this post.