So much to report but cant be fucked...
Ive been feeling quite lonely lately. When i am with people im fine, i have great friends and i love them dearly so its not like i feel alone when i am with them as some people do when they are with their friends,you know, still feel like something is missing, it's not that. Thing is i used to love my time alone.. now, as much as i enjoy my solitude, i feel like i would rather have someone with me, even if we were just sitting in silence. It is so true that the number of people around you and in your life has nothing to do with the loneliness factor.
Melbourne was bloody fantastic, i really really didn't want to come back home, as much as i missed a few people. I thought a week would be too long, turned out it wasn't near enough. I thought i may get sick of the girls, turned out i got closer to a couple of them, mainly suz. We are very the same, in what we like, in what we want to do, in the way we want to do things and in our ideals- not once did i feel like i wanted or needed to get away from her. I hope things with her and her man stay as good as they are, they are so in love despite the distance and i am praying that nothing comes between them. What they have is absolutely beautiful and i admire her so much because i could never do the distance thing. We took shitloads of photos and they are being put into a powerpoint which will basically be a visual representation of our week which doesn't miss one event and doesnt leave one moment uncaptured. Looking forward to it.
Uni starts back tomorrow. I am looking forward to it somewhat, it's not that i have been bored and struggling to keep myself entertained, far from it in fact, i think it's because it means i will be working less, plus my brain feels dead at the moment, a little stimulation will be good. It's not the social factor either... i dont really have any uni friends, well not ones i see out of uni anyway but it doesn't bother me... i dont have a need for it. Im happy to have my acquaintances, people to talk to in tutes, and that's it- i am content. I dont feel i have ever had the opportunity to get close to anyone at uni anyway because it's always different people in everything so i kind of blame the subjects i do (apart from when i did education, where you with with the same people over and over, but they were generally boring and i only speak to them when i see them around). There were so many complications with enrolment and i stil have heaps i have to organise tomorrow. Joy.
Probably going to james blunt concert. Had an awesome long and way overdue chat with weeza today. I miss her.
If i regret anything about the start of this year, it's that i have spent way too much time working.
Melbourne was bloody fantastic, i really really didn't want to come back home, as much as i missed a few people. I thought a week would be too long, turned out it wasn't near enough. I thought i may get sick of the girls, turned out i got closer to a couple of them, mainly suz. We are very the same, in what we like, in what we want to do, in the way we want to do things and in our ideals- not once did i feel like i wanted or needed to get away from her. I hope things with her and her man stay as good as they are, they are so in love despite the distance and i am praying that nothing comes between them. What they have is absolutely beautiful and i admire her so much because i could never do the distance thing. We took shitloads of photos and they are being put into a powerpoint which will basically be a visual representation of our week which doesn't miss one event and doesnt leave one moment uncaptured. Looking forward to it.
Uni starts back tomorrow. I am looking forward to it somewhat, it's not that i have been bored and struggling to keep myself entertained, far from it in fact, i think it's because it means i will be working less, plus my brain feels dead at the moment, a little stimulation will be good. It's not the social factor either... i dont really have any uni friends, well not ones i see out of uni anyway but it doesn't bother me... i dont have a need for it. Im happy to have my acquaintances, people to talk to in tutes, and that's it- i am content. I dont feel i have ever had the opportunity to get close to anyone at uni anyway because it's always different people in everything so i kind of blame the subjects i do (apart from when i did education, where you with with the same people over and over, but they were generally boring and i only speak to them when i see them around). There were so many complications with enrolment and i stil have heaps i have to organise tomorrow. Joy.
Probably going to james blunt concert. Had an awesome long and way overdue chat with weeza today. I miss her.
If i regret anything about the start of this year, it's that i have spent way too much time working.