College
Lately I've been thinking about where I want to go to college, what I want to do, and where I wanna be with the next ten years.
My future is starting to look scary and just bc I havent thought about it at all. I've been avoiding it at any cost just because I'm so scared of growing up and having to take care of myself. I mean, I can do it, it's just everything I know being nothing anymore.
I've always wanted to be a chef. Own my own restaraunt, work in one, whatever, I've wanted to cook. It's been an interest, or passion rather, since the day I learned.
Does every child at one point want to be a doctor? because I have always thought of it to be an interest of mine, and most small children I've met have wanted to be one, at one point...
This would take so much dedication, dedication I'm not sure I am capable of without the passion behind it.
Physical Therapy/Occupation Therapy. This is where the greedy side of me comes into play. I have dreamed of devoting myself to the art of cooking, yes, but I have also dreamed, for so long, of giving my future family a life that I never had. A life of luxury, I guess you could say. Big house, or a nice size[nice aka acceptable], pool in the backyard, a couple dogs a few cats, choice opportunities that cost money. Right now, growing up, there are some things I cannot do, due to lack of financial aid from my parents and my personal job. I can't blame it on them, they try. But I want it to come in so easily for me in the future.
So back to food....
The Culinary Art Institute in Hyde Park NY.
I've been thinking about it, and my mom has always pushed me to look at scholarships, start applying to colleges or at least, think about it, do the ACT, get my grades up, but now rather than push, she is actually considering what I want and we have talked, on more than one occassion, about a chance at going to CAI.
As I think about this wonderful opportunity there are disadvantages.
I would be in NY, a couple hundred miles from KY. I would be alone, to say the least, for a while.
I get excited about making new friends and starting a new chapter but it is so frightening all at once.
It's a huge state, one of which I know nothing about.
I would be so indtimidated.
Cost is around $19-20,000 with a lot of scholarsips awarded.
Housing on campus.
All I know is that when I start to think about it, I get giddy and start to giggle. And each new time I look at their web site I get that feeling in my chest like someone is standing in the chambers of my heart, tickling me. I can't breathe and I get nervous and all of this shouldnt happen, but I am a loser, so it is bound to happen to me.
It is a scary thought but completely exciting. Just to think about attending CAI gets my adrenaline going.
My parents are being so positive towards this school.
I just don't know what I want. But so far this seems to be it.
My future is starting to look scary and just bc I havent thought about it at all. I've been avoiding it at any cost just because I'm so scared of growing up and having to take care of myself. I mean, I can do it, it's just everything I know being nothing anymore.
I've always wanted to be a chef. Own my own restaraunt, work in one, whatever, I've wanted to cook. It's been an interest, or passion rather, since the day I learned.
Does every child at one point want to be a doctor? because I have always thought of it to be an interest of mine, and most small children I've met have wanted to be one, at one point...
This would take so much dedication, dedication I'm not sure I am capable of without the passion behind it.
Physical Therapy/Occupation Therapy. This is where the greedy side of me comes into play. I have dreamed of devoting myself to the art of cooking, yes, but I have also dreamed, for so long, of giving my future family a life that I never had. A life of luxury, I guess you could say. Big house, or a nice size[nice aka acceptable], pool in the backyard, a couple dogs a few cats, choice opportunities that cost money. Right now, growing up, there are some things I cannot do, due to lack of financial aid from my parents and my personal job. I can't blame it on them, they try. But I want it to come in so easily for me in the future.
So back to food....
The Culinary Art Institute in Hyde Park NY.
I've been thinking about it, and my mom has always pushed me to look at scholarships, start applying to colleges or at least, think about it, do the ACT, get my grades up, but now rather than push, she is actually considering what I want and we have talked, on more than one occassion, about a chance at going to CAI.
As I think about this wonderful opportunity there are disadvantages.
I would be in NY, a couple hundred miles from KY. I would be alone, to say the least, for a while.
I get excited about making new friends and starting a new chapter but it is so frightening all at once.
It's a huge state, one of which I know nothing about.
I would be so indtimidated.
Cost is around $19-20,000 with a lot of scholarsips awarded.
Housing on campus.
All I know is that when I start to think about it, I get giddy and start to giggle. And each new time I look at their web site I get that feeling in my chest like someone is standing in the chambers of my heart, tickling me. I can't breathe and I get nervous and all of this shouldnt happen, but I am a loser, so it is bound to happen to me.
It is a scary thought but completely exciting. Just to think about attending CAI gets my adrenaline going.
My parents are being so positive towards this school.
I just don't know what I want. But so far this seems to be it.