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Today didn't feel like a day, at all. I realized this as I was walking out of my second block and I could see people walking around me but I didn't actually notice anyone and sounds and voices were muted and/or being mixed together and I just felt dead. I felt so empty. I am empty.I've forgotten who I am.
I need something to make me feel again.
How can someone, anyone, walk around for an entire day feeling absolutely nothing? I wish I could have stepped outside of my body to watch myself as I went on with my day because I think that would have been rather amusing.
No one is perfect, I guess but it is almost as if I am making myself feel sorry for myself. I know it's not that, at all, because I'm having a few psychological problems right now.
Apparently, I only feel whole when I'm with friends.
The other day [this happened twice] I looked at someone and their face looked distorted for a quick few seconds and it triggered an anxiety attack and I started to cry.
It was weird, because they didn't make any "faces" they were just looking/talking and my mind messed up and fuck, it was just awful.
When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,
There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.
I've been obsessing over this song all day. I'm pretty sure it is the best thing in my life right now.
I'm singing it right now.
I need something to make me feel again.
How can someone, anyone, walk around for an entire day feeling absolutely nothing? I wish I could have stepped outside of my body to watch myself as I went on with my day because I think that would have been rather amusing.
No one is perfect, I guess but it is almost as if I am making myself feel sorry for myself. I know it's not that, at all, because I'm having a few psychological problems right now.
Apparently, I only feel whole when I'm with friends.
The other day [this happened twice] I looked at someone and their face looked distorted for a quick few seconds and it triggered an anxiety attack and I started to cry.
It was weird, because they didn't make any "faces" they were just looking/talking and my mind messed up and fuck, it was just awful.
When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,
There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,
Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.
I've been obsessing over this song all day. I'm pretty sure it is the best thing in my life right now.
I'm singing it right now.