totally confused
So...
life is throwing a lot of things at me right now. Here's a nice summary:
1. men problems. confused. don't know where to go/what to do. frustrated.
2. MB - recovering from the Michael madness. find myself not wanting to be around her. this is bad. but want to be alone. she needs me but isn't nice about it. frustrating.
3. want to hang out with mike, etc. more. no time. irritates other friends = complications when it should just be relaxing.
4. psych. midterm tomorrow. study? ??
5. fall break tomorrow afternoon. four days with MB and Jennette, 16 hours total driving. don't want to deal with MB for that long without being able to escape, which I can't because we're going to her house. love Jennette these days b/c we're in the same man-frustration boat. don't want to pack again after i just got back from my weekend in st. louis.
6. classes...what? i feel like i haven't done anything but also have a lot to do and have no time to do it. october already? madness.
7. can't have what i want when i want it - peace/friends/happiness/beer/WHATEVER
8. continuing collegian frustration...stories don't work out/don't run for weeks/have mistakes on the front page that aren't my fault like name misspellings in captions...i mean come on.
despite all this i appear calm, cool, and collected in front of people which is good i guess because i don't want to have to tell people about this all the time but at the same time no one can help me if i don't tell them. but, i don't know if these problems can be helped.
it's like i know what i want in all these situations but i can't get there because i don't have enough time/energy/resources or it's just impossible.
but nothing is impossible, i must remind myself.
too bad the sun's not out.
~
life is throwing a lot of things at me right now. Here's a nice summary:
1. men problems. confused. don't know where to go/what to do. frustrated.
2. MB - recovering from the Michael madness. find myself not wanting to be around her. this is bad. but want to be alone. she needs me but isn't nice about it. frustrating.
3. want to hang out with mike, etc. more. no time. irritates other friends = complications when it should just be relaxing.
4. psych. midterm tomorrow. study? ??
5. fall break tomorrow afternoon. four days with MB and Jennette, 16 hours total driving. don't want to deal with MB for that long without being able to escape, which I can't because we're going to her house. love Jennette these days b/c we're in the same man-frustration boat. don't want to pack again after i just got back from my weekend in st. louis.
6. classes...what? i feel like i haven't done anything but also have a lot to do and have no time to do it. october already? madness.
7. can't have what i want when i want it - peace/friends/happiness/beer/WHATEVER
8. continuing collegian frustration...stories don't work out/don't run for weeks/have mistakes on the front page that aren't my fault like name misspellings in captions...i mean come on.
despite all this i appear calm, cool, and collected in front of people which is good i guess because i don't want to have to tell people about this all the time but at the same time no one can help me if i don't tell them. but, i don't know if these problems can be helped.
it's like i know what i want in all these situations but i can't get there because i don't have enough time/energy/resources or it's just impossible.
but nothing is impossible, i must remind myself.
too bad the sun's not out.
~