Of unreasonably lazy days.
Slept in this morning, and it was worth every minute.
It wasn't so cold this morning, but I felt it more then usual. If that makes any sense.... small, and quiet, and cold.
Wasted my free time on the computer in the library, and I cannot do that tomorrow. Classes went by as usual. They blur, blend, pass swiftly. Honestly, I have too much time to think during the day. I get a lot of thinking and daydreaming done, but never enough. I draw a lot too, my papers are covered in doodles. We played tic tac toe during math class, and Laramie didn't notice AT ALL.
Then Dad picked me up, and we went to Buck's corner and got sandwiches and sun-chips and grape soda. We've been getting along really, really well lately, and I'm incredibly grateful for it. I haven't felt really comfortable and connected to him in a long time. For so long I only resented him, and blamed him for everything. But recently.... I love him, he's my daddy. It's a nice feeling.
Then I came home and finished the second season of sailor moon on youtube, and ate girl scout cookies.
I once again don't know where the evening went. I read a bit, and went over scholarships with the parentals, but I don't know how else I filled up the time. Skipped dinner, took a longer then usual hot shower, and now I'm here.
I realized that I want to be protected. It's not that I'm totally submissive, it's just that I want a co-dependent relationship, where we need each other, and love each other, and I want someone bigger then me, whose arms I can just fall into.
Or maybe I'm just incredibly naive.
I like looking at pictures of pretty dresses that are unaffordable and would look terrible on me.
I'm not going to work on the US News.
I'm going to go to bed.
Today's Happy Thought: magic shows
It wasn't so cold this morning, but I felt it more then usual. If that makes any sense.... small, and quiet, and cold.
Wasted my free time on the computer in the library, and I cannot do that tomorrow. Classes went by as usual. They blur, blend, pass swiftly. Honestly, I have too much time to think during the day. I get a lot of thinking and daydreaming done, but never enough. I draw a lot too, my papers are covered in doodles. We played tic tac toe during math class, and Laramie didn't notice AT ALL.
Then Dad picked me up, and we went to Buck's corner and got sandwiches and sun-chips and grape soda. We've been getting along really, really well lately, and I'm incredibly grateful for it. I haven't felt really comfortable and connected to him in a long time. For so long I only resented him, and blamed him for everything. But recently.... I love him, he's my daddy. It's a nice feeling.
Then I came home and finished the second season of sailor moon on youtube, and ate girl scout cookies.
I once again don't know where the evening went. I read a bit, and went over scholarships with the parentals, but I don't know how else I filled up the time. Skipped dinner, took a longer then usual hot shower, and now I'm here.
I realized that I want to be protected. It's not that I'm totally submissive, it's just that I want a co-dependent relationship, where we need each other, and love each other, and I want someone bigger then me, whose arms I can just fall into.
Or maybe I'm just incredibly naive.
I like looking at pictures of pretty dresses that are unaffordable and would look terrible on me.
I'm not going to work on the US News.
I'm going to go to bed.
Today's Happy Thought: magic shows