please be kind if Im a mess

[lostuinnov]

in my lifetime ive been called alot of different things by a lot of diffrent people

honest,blunt,gay,loud,square,talkative,funny,
gossipy,weird,crazy,emo,obsessive compulsive,
freak,nino,dumb,daydreamer,sick,strange,

and the one that has stuck with me the most is

resilient.

and as of late i have found it so hard to live up to the one adjective that describes me best. most days i feel like staying in bed and slumbering all day long. i feel like im wasting away and that no one is coming to save me and ive lost interest to save myself.
im tired of myself once again ive lost intrest in all of me. ive stopped caring ive stopped tryin ive stopped everything. i need to fall in love with myself again. work makes me feel like shit. i feel lonely and i shouldnt. i want to go back home forget everything. i dont know what to do.

i just need time.
i just need time.
i just need time.
i just need time.

gil