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Did I lose all my friends? Does anyone want to hang out with me anymore?Or did I ruin it all? I know I know emo and depressing. I get it. But really did I screw it all up? I know I've made a lot of mistakes but does that mean no one wants to be around me anymore? I'm trying to fix things but I don't know how. But I also don't know if anyone even likes me anymore. It hurts. Maybe I deserve that maybe this is what happens because I was selfish and part of me didn't see just how selfish i was. But I don't want to lose all my friends.I don't want to not be out there having fun with them. I want them to want to talk to me. I want to fight for this I just want to know that someone cares I'm fighting. Someone who wants me to be there. Someone who at the end of the day wants to spend time with me too even if its to do nothing. I don't know. Maybe it's not going to happen but maybe it will right? Maybe I shouldn't have fucked things up to begin with. Too late for that though.