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It's never really new but I can never seem to avoid it. I'll have the same argument with myself over and over and yet the conclusions fall short of where I know they should logically fall and where my heart forces them to fly. I'm concerned. I'm upset. I'm unimpressed. It's the same shit over and over again and I just don't know how to deal with it. No method seems correct. It hardly seems right or fair for either end. Does it finally hit me that this may all be to much.Too much to maintain. Too much to deal with. I wonder. What do i do in this situation where I want to things that are complete opposites? One I know I should be careful approaching the other . . well that's the same. So what to do. I'm not blind to it all but it's just a big pile of bull to me. I just don't know what to o or how to handle it. There's a surprise. What a big fucking surprise.