It Never Ends.....!
It never gets any easier, nothing ever does! I tried, I tried it all again! I gave me and Jason another chance and everything was perfect today...... he took me to lunch, we rented a couple movies and watched them with Nick and Jade, and even went out for ice cream after that. Then when the four of us were goofin off in the parking lot outside of Baskin Robins, Jason wanted us to help him clean out his car before he takes it in to The Specialists to get his system put in. And what did I find? Could it be...... A SACK OF WEED!
You may think I'm overreacting by dumping him, however we both swore on our lives and promised each other, the whole "cross my heart, hope to die thing...." that we'd stay clean and give it up for good. That includes no weed, no cigarettes, and anything else u can smoke (don't worry guys, I'm not a druggy, it's just guidelines). Well, this isn't the first time he's broken his promise to me, he did it about once or twice more and I forgave him. I thought this time he would REALLY quit, like, HONESTLLY quit! But again, I'm wrong about everything. I really love him guys, with all my heart I do, but I just can't understand why I seem to attract either A. liars or B. assholes!
Everytime I try to fly, I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Jason, I know you're reading this because you read everything I write, so take those lyrics to heart and realize how much you hurt me when you do the things you do.....