how can one week become so different
I hate all this self pity im doing to myself. i know my situations arent that bad and im probably over reacting but i really dont give a shit anymore. i just dont know what to do. I feel like i hvae no value and theres no one here for me. so last week was fucking great and now every point of that is the opposite. Tyler now doesnt talk to me and jsut makes me feel worthless because i dont know what i did wrong, if anything. and i just over think and i feel like he can feel me caring so much while he doesnt give a shit. next on my list is zach, i tell him about my guy problem and today he tells me he doesnt care and thanks zach i come to you for advice and you tell me you dont care. im sorry something that is really bothering me is annoying to you. ill stop talking then. I think i dont care is probably the worst put down possible. not only do they not one to give you the time of day, they jsut dont want to listen to something that really matters to you. I put my heart on my sleeve and you jsut rip it up. Next Kristen. I have never complained about a friend as much as i did her. You are the most childish and hopeless person ever. you are the lost dog im tryihgn to help but in return i get shit. just htat shit. you ask for a ride? ill give it to you. i ask you to throw away a fucking box. YOU CANT EVEN DO THAT? are you serious? how many times do i have to ask? im not your mom yet you act liek a child. you are jsut so fucking patheitic and selfish. i dont give a fuck about you and i dont want you as a friend. thanks and bye. And tennis. oh tennis. how much i fuckin hate you. i jsut want to win one game yet i still fuckin suck. I shouldnt even get my hopes up to win. im obviously just a loser and lose at everything. I cant get a guy, i cant win a game, i hate my friends. The one person i feel most comfortable to talk to is chris. who has a girlfriend. i dont know if he actually cares abouty what i tell him but he makes me feel somewhat important. thank you for caring thats all i ask for. I dont know what i want. i just want this to all go away. :( good night. this is the worst i have felt in a really long time.