and so it ends..
Lesley was one of those people that really impacted my life, she came in my time of darkness and was always there since then. I couldnt help but start feeling love for her after these past two wonderful years. We learned and expericened the world in both of our aspects. The first year we spent clubbing, drinking, staying out late at nights really living the life, which she really got me into and I loved because I never had nights to remember like those. The second year we started calming down and she started getting seious about her religion. So no more partying or drinking, of course I respected that because I wanted the same. We still went out but got to do more cultured aspects now, mostly we did art walks, shows, historic sites, reading books, or any local event that was going on. Overall the time we spent we started developing feelings for each other, even though she never wanted to admit it, but I could always tell, the way we acted was almost as we were a couple,I dont know when but I started to fall for her.. and that was my big downfall.
One night I finally poured out my heart to her like never before. I could see in her eyes as I was dropping her off, that she felt something for me too, it was all in her eyes almost as she wanted to kiss me, but I dont know why I didnt. why I hesitated.. in the past I was able to easily just do kiss any woman, why couldnt I do it with her.. thats what ran through my mind. As we discussed it she told me we wouldnt see each other anymore. I know in her mind it was hard to do because we loved each other and she knows it, but now thats shes serious about her religion we can never be.
I will never forget her for all she did for me, for how much she made me a better person, how confident she made me feel, how I learned to love again, how to be social, how to be there for a friend, how to really love a woman without ever getting sex. I wouldnt have the passion and desire to make something out of myself if it wasnt myself. So Lesley will forever remain in my heart.
One night I finally poured out my heart to her like never before. I could see in her eyes as I was dropping her off, that she felt something for me too, it was all in her eyes almost as she wanted to kiss me, but I dont know why I didnt. why I hesitated.. in the past I was able to easily just do kiss any woman, why couldnt I do it with her.. thats what ran through my mind. As we discussed it she told me we wouldnt see each other anymore. I know in her mind it was hard to do because we loved each other and she knows it, but now thats shes serious about her religion we can never be.
I will never forget her for all she did for me, for how much she made me a better person, how confident she made me feel, how I learned to love again, how to be social, how to be there for a friend, how to really love a woman without ever getting sex. I wouldnt have the passion and desire to make something out of myself if it wasnt myself. So Lesley will forever remain in my heart.