It never fails..
So Saturday night I was suppose to go out with Keyla on our second date night, but earlier that day when I was at work she texted me, saying she wont be able to make it that night. I responded back with a "how come?" and she said she wanted to talk to me about it instead. So as you can imagine in my head I already knew the scenario and I was right when I got home and finally heard her story. She told me that she didnt feel anything for me and was wrong for her to lead me on, so thats why she didnt want to go out. In a way like I said I already knew this was going to happen, I mean its happen to me a lot of times for me to know all the signs, we were talking less and texting less, not to mention it felt like things were dying out. I kinda lost it when she told me that.. to a point where I let my emotions take the better of me. I broke down with sadness and anger even though I was expecting it. I dont know why but for some reason I felt really emotion towards the whole situation, I mean maybe its the fact that I for once opened myself up to someone for once. I guess it all has to do with all the time I spent with Lesley, yes it all leads back to her once again. With her it was all about fun and just keeping it emotion free, so there was never any sadness or deep conversations. overall our relationship was based on just sheer happiness and ignoring those other important aspects when it came to it. I guess its been so long that I forgot how to actually love a woman and be open with her. In a way its easier for me to get a woman now, but now its just the whole matter of getting her to stay with me. its funny because years ago I had trouble getting women, but when I did they stayed a long time.